Just yesterday he told me he didnt want to date me because were close friends. He said he wouldnt want to hurt me, and to lose me. He said he knew I would hate him if we dated. I love him , why would I ever hate him! My heart is broken, my stupid emotions ! </3 yea I aint going to kill myself for that I still love him but he doesnt know that..sigh.. He made me feel to have a purpose,he makes me happy when im usually sad. Yeah I cried for a bit I dont know but I am in love and im 15. Yeah im a guy thats bisexual , everyone who knows says dang you dont even look like it. Ha, I just want him to be happy.
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I hear ya, I got some terrible issues I am also dealing w….a terrible bullying situation at my firm, where I have been working 10-12 hour days so tehy will hire me, and now they are not…I’ve put up w. everything there saying nothing bc of the bad scon, hubby of 9 years and I separated in May and I have fallen for a guy BIG time at work, who is giving me mixed signals, fell so hard that it is way more intense than what I felt for my husband, which was more like “learning to love”. Not sure if this thing is in my head w/ this guy, he shows sporadic interest, when I reciprocate by being friendly he shuts me down, then when I retreat he comes around again. My heart stops just looking at him, Its bad. Well, I din’t think he is player it seems out if character w/. his persona which is very reserved, speaks really to noone. But I know that pain. I am soooo emo too over it, and I don’t need it now…but we cannot control what we feel. The heart wants what it wants and won’t be denied.
Glad you won’t kill yourself over him. Noone is worth THAT…for me, its just too much rejection from a cold world. Ya, I speak a language the world doesn’t thing.
HUGS
Dang yea we would go to a baseball field kiss,hugg,and he holded my hand so we were holding hands that one time and the first time he gave me a bj. But we were already good friends I remember we did some stuff in is teachers classroom but that was the first time he hugged me. He told me his favorite part was making me happy.
He was trying to spare you pain.
He knew that if he dated you that his actions may hurt you.
Love and hate are not opposites…. hate is a twisted kind of love.
Yes we use it in the wrong context because even I do some times.
But to hate something you must first love it.
He seems to deeply care for you and with time all you can do is try to be happy with that.
Love is like that…. it heals and it hurts.
At least you are strong enough not to want to die because of it.
Maybe Danny he is conflicted about his sexualty?
Oh Mate, but up! IT S&CKS to be where you are….heartbroken. Me too. 🙁
Yea I am lucky to have him , hes sweet, nice, caring but each time I tell him I want you to be happy he says dont worry about me. I just want him to be happy and he says he just wants me to be happy.
Hard to say friends w/ someone you are so attracted to.. Better make a break, I know its not what you want to hear, but it might save you further heartache.
Hes secretly bisexual. im not secretly anymore but alot of people dont know im bisexual. But I could never tell my family ever they would beat me for that. They are good parents they just dont accept bis or gays.
Parents are old-fashioned, my guy is Asian my parents would not like that, you know I found if you don’t go forth in the world you are less tolerant, if you travel, are educated mix you become more tolerant.
Well, its hard to keep secrets like that so maybe he loves you but just can’t handle it. Christ being 15 is hard enough (we didn’t have these kinds of troubles, it was simpler, nicer) without dealing with these things. Give him space, see what develops.
If I give him space then he might think im ignoring him. When one of us is down we hang out. So were good friends so we pretty much tell everything to each other.
u japanese Mitsuko,cos your name sounds it
I know I am stuck w. pushy pully man myself, LOL so maybe I am thinking OFF, well you’ll have to stick it as a platonic thing or not at all…can you? HARD mate.
@Noom, hmmm…..am I? Well, I am a writer, I just finsihed a novel set in Japan, and the main character is Mitsuko, no I am not Japanese LOL, though I sure feel like it, and have recently fallen for an Asian guy so I think life is imitating art here…
Mtsuko is a Japanese name, the name also came to me being one of my fave Guerlain perfumes, spelled “Mitsouko” french way.
Well Danny if he’s secretly bi then that might be the whole issue.
He may not be ready to have an open relationship with you and he cares for you too much to want to hide it.
Mitsuko was right about giving him space.
I wish the world was more accepting of the range of sexuality.
It is so sad that you have to hide your love from others and family.
Maybe by the time you guys are adults there will be more acceptance because there are those who are fighting hard for it.
Yeah, I hope… I just tried to make myself throwup and I tried to make a cutt to my stomach with scissors but it just left redness .. Idk y I just have no life so Idk
Don’t start throwing up D-I was bulimic for years, its not easy to put the genie back in the bottle. You WILL get over the heartache, you will. I speak from experience, though I wish I could get over mine now. Getting that job away from him would have been cool now, sigh..
What he said to you is this; ……… We are friends , You will hate me because I “Will” fuck you at least once, then turnaround and ignore you, because I won’t fuck you again.
Thats the male to female translation as I see it.
Look its the same thing as a woman telling a guy she only likes him as a friend, yet the difference is a guy will screw anything at least once where a woman may not.
Also there maybe some real fear on his part that he needs you as that friend he holds special and knows in his heart that it just wont work between you both.
If you want to see if he secrretly actually loves you, …. go and get a boyfriend, that will surely raise his interest if he does in fact have love and not just friendship for you.