If only the delete button

I wish there was a button to push and my life was deleted, no mess left behind as with a firearm.

I am powerless over the availabity of the meds I need to delete myself.

Very nervous about when they will be available. I am ready to scream !

Why is it so difficult to make this happen.

I am so scared to continue living, I just want the end.

I wonder why writing this stuff is theraputic in a strange way