Letter to my therapist….does it sound ok?

I know I should have mentioned this earlier, but I’m suicidal. Except I can’t kill myself because I would never devastate my family like that. I’m suicidal because of my depression, anxiety about my appearance, fear of failure and very important life decisions that will need to be made very soon, and what will come in the future. There hasn’t been a day that’s gone by in the past four years which I haven’t thought about suicide, whether it was about doing it or just about it in general. I’ve come to notice that suicide is inescapable; it’s in T.V shows, movies, commercials, in the news, ect. There is also anti-bullying everywhere and, you guessed it, the teens that killed themselves over it. Whenever I’m around family and these things come on it gets very awkward, at least for me anyway.