…is by DHT -Depressed. Hot song! Happy and kind of haunting in a way. The part of the song that gets me is this..
“Oh God please let me go.
Let me leave my misery.
I’m so tired in my head.”
“Can’t keep on living like this,
’cause I have no life you see.
I shall end my own misery.”
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Mwtele, I’ve lived a life of fear and uncertainty, but I feel many of us hit an ultimate low, where you feel you have no life and your not worth anything. Not sure what your story maybe but I know when my ex-husband verbally and mentally abused me I thought I deserved it because I was a worthless wife. I worked, took care of my home and my son, but yet I wasn’t good enough. You see after being with someone for 12 years you become who they make you feel. I wanted to end my life so many times I would feel so worthless like I just took up space in a world that didn’t need me or cared, I even wrapped my car around a cement wall and survived. I inflated my tire so it would look like an accident and my son would get my life insurance, somehow I survived, only thing that keeps me going is my boy now. If I leave him I know his dad may turn him into a low self esteem person. What would my boy think of me was his mom a coward to just check out. My story is long, but you know what my song is to my ex now. It is Mr.know it all.. by kelly clarkson. It makes me stronger everyday.. good luck bud, find a song that makes you stronger not weaker.. songs are powerful live life one step at a time
@openroad I’m glad that I found this site because it’s a great place to vent without someone yelling at you or trying to put you down or make you think that they know the way. My life has gotten much better in the past couple of weeks. Guess I kind of let go of things that I should have let go of long ago. I would never kill myself….I just couldn’t do that. I’ve learned a lot from the people on this site. I think the biggest thing is trust and understanding. Here I can say things that I could never tell anyone I know. That has helped me a ton. I have to say though that I believe suicide is not a cowards way. It takes so much determination and strength to actually try and pull it off. People don’t understand that because they haven’t been there. I really have a problem with people saying that. Good thing you made it to today. Good luck to ya.
Thank you I’ve moved on. your right its not cowardly to the person doing it as you become strong enough to end it but to the people we leave behind they think that of you. They think u weren’t strong enough to deal and you just bale on them, I know that’s what my son felt. His mom was suppose be his safe haven but she was willing to leave him with all his own insecurities. I find this site to be helpful for the days my thoughts get the best of me. Stay positive, look at the open road ahead there might be a better life for you out there. I see it now for me. 😉