So… I lost another chance today. I was supposed to turn up at my teachers office at 9 am today. But, i got up late because my phone has no batteries so i couldn’t set the alarm. Still, i could have made it in 37 min, if only i hadn’t been staring into space so much. My teacher wanted me to write one of the essays he’d given us to do the subject before this one… One of them was supposed to be written in school with his supervision, and my remedial on that one was supposed to be today. The other THREE he wants by the fourth of December. When i heard that the first time i went down and cried for an hour under the school stairs.
This time… I arrived about 15 minutes late, went right through the school and took a stroll in the supermarket nearby. Then i sat myself under the stairs again for about two and a half hours. Completely calm. Ugh… My chest hurt when i started writing this. I guess i’m not so calm anymore. My life is spiraling to pieces. And I’m not going to do anything to stop it. I’ve completely lost control.
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I know it is spiraling out of control. It is time to try to fix things, and make things right. There’e enough suffering in the world already. Let’s try to do good, and put some more good out there. Make the world a happy place.
I think you want the sci fi section. You know, where you can make everything right just by pushing a button.
Purmi. It is not the sci fi version. Just put a little bit of effort each day. Nobody is asking you to do it all at once, but slowly will get you there.
I guess the main question is: if not now, when?
Just “a little bit of effort” won’t help you catch up to a train travelling ten times as fast as you!