Okay this is really it I’m 14 my closest relative has died I broke up with my boyfriend in failing school. The only thing left is suicide I’m sorry I was such a failure I guess I wasn’t the person you wanted to know I wrote my note for my mom to read this I don’t want her to he surprised she knew it was coming she wouldn’t let me get help now I’m saying my goodbyes for this is the end.
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im really sorry about what your going through if you want to talk im here to help…
OK then I guess I’ll talk for a few minutes
ok,so whats going on?
So I’m crying and I’m cutting myself and I’ve been bullied since first grade now I’m a freshman and they call me emo and I’m an attention seeker because I’m black and I self harm they said I wasn’t normal I just want it to go away and I stop crying so that’s why I’m committing Suicide they make fun of me bcuz I go to a school that’s to in the nation nd they call me nerd and all that I’ve been bullied for 10 years no one has done anything I’m so done with this shit.
i know exactly what you mean…i was bullied all throughout school to the point where i almost killed myself, i never fit in, always got made fun of, and no one cared or did anything to help or stop it and now im a high school dropout. i know what its like
Yeah but I’ve attempted Suicide before so many times I’ve been in and out of psych hospitals 5 times I don’t know what to do anymore self harm doesn’t work for me anymore. 🙁
wish i had an answer to help but i dont know what to say, i cant say everything will get better cause it still hasn’t for me but i believe there’s hope,hope for you i believe things will change for the better for you,ive lost faith in the world dont be like me believe there’s hope…always
I have to I don’t even go to church anymore
People can be cruel. I think about Jesus and I remember everything that he did so that I could live. I remember how he was rejected, ridiculed, beat, spat at, and how he handled himself. He held his head up and still loved. If anyone had a reason to want it all to go away, it was him. But he stuck around and showed everyone true love, true compassion, and true strength. Now, he is still there to help us and to love us even if no one else does. There are a lot of stories in the Bible where people could have chosen suicide, but instead put their trust in God and cried out to him for help.
If you read the book of Job, Job lost everything (his kids, his employees, his health etc.) but he decided that he would trust and hope in God. He contracted a skin disease and his friends would pass by and make fun of him and tell him, “Just curse your God already and die!” But Job refused. He was in a lot of pain, he cried out to God and he didn’t understand why this was happening to him, but he still trusted God. Job wanted to give up and just kill himself to end the pain, but he knew that whatever he was going through, that God would be with him. In the end, God ended up giving Job twice as much as he had before all of these things happened to him. Job kept his trust in God, and God rewarded him for it.
I know you feel like you can’t take it anymore, but trust me and trust God that you can. It’s not easy at all, but in the end, you will feel and be so much stronger for overcoming your current situation.
do you still believe in god?
No
He really helped me throughout my teenage years. I was really depressed when I was your age. My parents got divorced, my mom was crazy and my dad was an alcoholic. I can’t even tell you how many nights I went to sleep crying and angry with God for making me go through things like this. My mother would lose it over silly things over unwashed dishes or dirt on the floor. Really, she was insane. My dad would sometimes show up super drunk and try to get into the house every now and then. I was definitely one of those people asking “God, why are you doing this to me?!” But I didn’t stop believing in Him. I actually starting reading my Bible and praying a lot more because I was desperate for some type of comfort. It’s been about 6 or 7 years since then. Three years ago, my mom decided to come to church with me and she is a completely changed person today. She doesn’t go crazy anymore, even though she still has some emotional problems, but she’s gotten so much better over the last few years, that its hard for me to think of her as the same person that she was 6 years ago.
I know this website says that this isn’t a place to preach the gospel, but its part of my story, so I can’t help it. It was because of Jesus that depression didn’t take over my life the way it could have.
Well its not working I’ve tried prayer from the saints and trying to g to the Vatican bcuz I’m Catholic u know
Why go to a saint when you can go straight to Jesus himself? If you read the bible, you’ll notice that anytime someone tried to bow down to anyone but God, they were told to stand up (examples, John and Joseph seeing angels). Jesus gave up his life for you, not any of the saints. He’s the one who was thinking specifically about you when he died on the cross.
hey @bcofhislove what religion are you?
Not according to Catholicism I’m confused now.
Loving Jesus can’t really be called a religion, it’s more a life decision and a relationship with Jesus. I don’t follow a certain set of rules or traditions because I’m told to, like in a religion. I read the Bible and talk to Jesus (pray). I do go to a church, and I suppose it would be considered a Pentecostal church because we believe in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ, a conscious decision to be baptized in water, and receiving the Holy Spirit as a helper and comforter.
are you a jehovah’s witness?
Well in catholicithe big figures r virgin Mary and the saints
Lol no, definitely not.
There are also a lot of non-denominational churches out there that believe the same things my church believes. They actually choose to be called non-denominational because they recognize that life with Jesus isn’t about religion in any way.
while i’d love 2 continue this conversation have 2 go bbl
Well I think I’m tired if talking nothing helped I’m leaving this world for good I have my knife pills and noose bye I hope you guys have better lives 🙁
Just so you know, even though I don’t know you, I’m praying for you.
Do you know the band Flyleaf? You should really listen to the lead singer’s story.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XYk_sY3XDRc&feature=related
Listen, just make it through high school, everything gets sooooo much better after school. School is a horrible torture but if you make it through you can experience REAL life. Uni, travelling… but don’t think life is going to be like school at all, because school is a fucked up society of bullies and sheep, and usually when people leave, they grow up a little.
high school is shit,but for me my life never got better after i was done with school
I’ve slit my wrists and taken the pills really nothing else to do but wait.
im really sorry… i wished i could of helped but guess not,well if you really did i wish you peace… if not then i wish you hope
@suicide, you should call an ambulance. I honestly don’t think what you did is enough to kill you. What meds did you take?
@heartless – sorry things didn’t get better after school, but I don’t know how hard you’re trying. Not saying it will be perfect, but it SHOULD get better. At least no more bullying.
Thanks and u did help but the religion thing I just couldn’t deal with its not ur fault I’m doing this its not anybody’s its my fault for being a failure
yea i had people tell me all my life that things would get better after high school and i would think so but they just got worse
You can’t be a failure if your only in school, you’re too young to have lived, let alone fail! Screw the religion thing. You have your hands full trying to deal with life and yourseslf, don’t worry about a higher power!
@heartless, if things didn’t get better after school I maintain that you werent trying. How did things get worse?
just onslaught of problem after problem and things kept gettin worse and i just lost control to the point where i had a plan to die, i don’t have any friends really, had my heart broken multiple times, i dont fit in anywhere, i hate my life…
Yes it is now complete
I’m 14 aswell and I get bullied everyday .. I can’t really do anything about it but feel disgusted about myself and the people around me. Everyone is so fucking cruel and selfish, so very shallow and judgemental. Well, all I wanna say is that I can relate to you, I have given up completely on life.