Cant abandon my mum

My Mum Was The Only Person Keeping Me Alive For The Past Few Years, Especially The Past 6months, I Only Kept Going For Her Sake, But To Do That, I Pretended, Almost Became A Different Person, And When I Was Alone I Broke Down, 6months Ago I Took A OD That Nearly Cost Me My Life, I Ended Up In Hospital, Seeing My Mum In So Much Pain Made Me Feel Terrible! I Had Manditory Councelling, I Only Just Got The Courage Yesterday To Ask For More Help, My Mum Is Devistated &I Haven’t Even Told Her Half Of It, I Dont Want To Hurt Her, However, She Just Wants Me Better, Im Unsure Whether Your Mum Is Aware Of Your Depression, But Trust Me, When You Feel You Can, Talk To Her, Because She Will Want Whats Best For You, Maybe Staying For Your Mum Is What Will Help You Get Out Of This Depression, Dont Get To The Point Where You Start To Resent Her For Making Stay, I Never Thought I Would Get There Because How Much I Love My Mum, But It Started To Get That Way, And It Makes It Harder To Find The Strenght To Keep Fighting, I Wish You The Best Of Luck, I Really Do!xxxx