my brother and his wifeand our sister are coming or Christmas, i’m not really looking foreward to it. Three extra people in my little apartment, that’s my safe place, where I go and no one bothers me cuz no one notices i exist. If they are all there, I won’t be able to purge, cut self-injure and I’ll probably have to eat 3 times a day to make it look like I’m “normal”
I don’t know that I can do this. It’s hard enough being depressed and suicidal without having to hide it all the time. I usually can go home and cry, but that’ll be out of the question for 4 days. I home I make it.
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Suicide rates go up around holidays.
I believe that you should tell your brother about your deppression and suicidal thoughts.
If he is coming than he shows that he cares about you. You should definitly tell him as he loves you. Please don’t hide it!
Couldnt just blow them off? then head off on a 4 day retreat or something?
Ive been in a perpetual state of discomfort since i moved back with family to save on rent. I miss my cave where i can be naked and free. Smoke all the green i want without feeling like a pathetic loser. I miss the silence. Good luck, the bathroom is your friend