Ready to End It All

My username says it all. Never had a girlfriend in all these years, had some dates but they did not become a relationship. Never had a close friend with whom i can share the things i like. Don’t remember whether i celebrated any of birthdays after elementary school. To be honest, I am like Dexter Morgan, not in terms of psychopathic tendencies but in terms of having an utmost inability to relate to people. Have been living like this for such a long time and i think the time has come for me to end it all. I will try hanging via electric cable tonight. I believe in God but can only hope that there is no Hell.