My dad is a sadistic bastard. There are no two ways about it. While I was younger it was always sexual and physical abuse, but now he has taken joy in fucking up my future as well. He always goes through my backpack to throw out my homework and never lets me on the computer to do any research or type up essays. And to make things worse, I’ve been getting sick so I’m already behind on my work, making it nearly impossible to catch up. Now my dad lets me use the wi-fi, but that’s because he already knows it’s too late for me to catch up.
I was so close to being able to be free of him, I got accepted to a college on the other side of the country, but that was back when my GPA was a 4.0….now it’s a 1.75. Now my acceptance will get revoked, and he will once again have power over me…I can’t do this, I’d rather die than put up with being his punching bag for another year. It’s too bad that it looks like this is how it’s going to be. Hah, I probably sound like a whiny brat right no, how shameful
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That’s heart-breaking. Is there no way you can study away from home in your own time – at a local library maybe. If keeping your grades up is the best way of escaping him then you need to find a way.
nah you sound like me and dozens of others on this site…..stick around….don’t be in a hurry….there are some really smart, helpful, caring souls here that want to listen….me too….just not so smart and pretty self-involved right now…..truth
don’t live in your own post….visit others soulful cries and feel at home…you are welcome…..it was perfect….it is perfect…it will be perfect….and you are perfect…..and loved …..that’s the best i have to offer…lazy for sure….but i care and so do you or you wouldn’t be here in the first place
Namaste
Amakua
Please know you are cared for. I am a 35 yr old girl who had my share of shitty situations but nothing as bad as you have to deal with. I have tried to take my own life…recovered and found something good…although I struggle with it everyday..but it’s not about me..it’s about you and the pain from your father who decided his needs were greater than yours and ultimately killed you from the inside…working it’s way out. I want to help. You need to know. I have lost friends from suicide… and– the world goes on…..I didn’t want that…I wanted the world to change/remember honor everything I am…but that doesn’t happen…or at least it does for a little while..You don’t deserve anything that asshole has done to you….you didn’t choose him..(I won’t even give him the honor of being called your father)…you don’t know me..that’s okay..I understand if you don’t….but feel free to talk to me whenever you need JFisc30075@comcast.net…..I would love to help you find a way to free yourself from the world you are in now…to a world where your passions and life matter beyond anything else..
Jenny
Whiny brat? When I know people who complain about how they’re whole day is ruined cause they’re hair didn’t look good and they world is going to end because of it and I read stories like this it makes me sick that they think they have it hard. The fact you had a GPA of 4.0 with that going on your whole life shows how incomprehensibly strong you are as an individual, it makes me wish the world could appreciate the hard work people push themselves through even when going through such hardship times rather than dwell on superficial insignificant things like what color the nail Polish they wanted was or which heels they should wear with a dress to go out in. I lost my scholarship cause of my parents too and now I’m stuck living at home and feel like I will never get away but my boyfriend is trying his best to help me get away cause we both feel like if I could leave I may not feel so depressed all the time. Good luck to you! I will keep your story in my heart as a reminder of how hard people work and use it to help myself push through
you dont sound like a whiny brat. you sound like someone who has been hurt and angry. and you should be. he has no right to do what he has done. i wish you sooo much luck! xoxox