The place I live in right now is killing me. Every passing day I stay here, I see everything I ever wanted in life slip just a little further away. All my hopes, my dreams… Always slipping away. People here dont accept me, the curse of being an outsider in a small town. I hate it here. My family thinks its a phase, but its not a bloody phase, and they are as much a part of the problem! They’re just as closed minded as the rest of this community. Religious zealots always wanting me to live my life, but only as long as it coincides with their religious beliefs. No amount of arguing with them makes them understand I dont follow their beliefs.
I hate this place. I hate watching my dreams slip away, and i hate even more not being able to do anything about it…
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Sounds like a pagan on the loose? I run a large commercial New Age site and I’m pretty sure we’d call me a pagan too. But unlike a lot of people with similar beliefs and practices, I don’t hate the Christians. Just the opposite. Most of them mean well even if they are sometimes too pushy. And in the big picture, it is the countries that were founded largely by Christians that gave us the freedom to do and believe as we choose. Most of the other religions have a lot less tolerance for different people and beliefs. So I’m fine with the Christians. They haven’t burnt anyone at the stake in several hundred years.
The nice thing about the Internet is that you can probably find people who share your views and beliefs. I don’t take too seriously those who don’t share my views…unless they have walked in my shoes and judge from experience. When the religious crazies get too wild I just think ‘if you only knew, what you don’t know’…and I walk away. Don’t let’em get ya down!
Good luck my friend! 🙂
Is there any way to move away?
Being non religious myself I had to grow up around devoutly baptist family members and most of the people I know being similarly strongly christian or muslim.
And it really gets annoying when they are always trying to apply their beliefs and rules to your life.
I can only recommend leaving as soon as you are able.
Maybe you can deal with it but I know I rarely speak to my family because they never shut up about it.
I wish I *could* leave, but I just dont have the finances to do so. 🙁
Just remind yourself that so many people’s beliefs regardless of what they profess to be are born out of fear and a serious lack of knowing the truth…so they have to feel better about their beliefs and make others feel bad if they aren’t on the same page.
Whenever you can, follow what you know to be true and get yourself to a place, physically or otherwise that reflects back to you, your values. Good luck!