US the state looks like a mitten. @caucajan I should’ve guessed your from New Orleans by your screen name. Also I know someone else from the netherlands and they type english fluently along with dutch. I don’t think the site is translated.
Well I see we are from all over the place, I guess its just when people have time to be here.
I’m ………………. very alone !!!! Even with all of you.
I’m ………………. very scared.
I am not at peace, I watched these NDE’s videos and am still afraid of death, the physical deliberate end of ones own life.
It has to be Im upset with the method I’m left with.
I easily would swallow 30, 40, 50 pills if I had something that would work.
I have in the past failed to produce the gas I was after, ……….. Yet I was at peace when I dumped all the chemicals in the buckets.
I wonder why I can be Okay with a certain way, and yet not okay with another ? It has to be fear.
Who knows me and my AA sponsor were talking about I need a miracle, I told him a miracle for me right now would be a Jet at altitude flushing it’s toilet and a huge Ice Turd Ball would crash through the roof and kill me, LOL.
We both laughed, he’s attempted suicide in the past and he understood what I was saying.
Yes…it is an amazing world then…at least if you are somewhat rural. All quiet, dark, and peaceful…alone in the only world that really matters…the one between your ears. 😀
ear phones in tunes blaren walken down by a river that leads to this quay of sorts that done sduch a way that half it really rough and the other side really calm and there this seat that litterally too steps away from a drop in the water. I love it so much!
I’m 51. I was told for 40 something years that we were Irish then someone did a really good family tree.
The truth is America is the great Melting Pot, I dentify myself as of Europeans descent, yet there is alot of mixing going on over here.
As long as I’m alive I will allways be a Human Being, whats left after death are the reemains of a human being.
Whats happens next is anyones guess, I like billions of other human beings wish and hope for, have 6th type of sense that there is an existance after this life.
I wish there were guns available in Ireland… I reckon that’d be the easiest way to go… I could manage one quick squeeze of a trigger but all other methods seem to take more time / pain / willpower…
@dreamboat. If u look hard enough u can find a gun anywhere. Limerick and dubline have certain areas that such a thing would be easily found, not to mention the north but i dont see why u need it, jump!
F*** jumping man, i’m not great with heights…..! I’ve done a bunjee jump before and it’s hard enough then to force yourself to jump, doing it without a chord isn’t something I could override myself to do…. I reckon it’d be difficult for me to just walk through Limerick / Dublin and pick up a gun, I think you’d need to know someone, and i’m not connected with anybody involved with guns….
If u drunk and in enough of a state it shouldnt be too hard. there again ive never tried to jump… kinda hard down here not many high buildings. walk enough streets in the dark nd ull either find a gun or someone will make u not need the gun if u cetch me
I invested in all the kit required for a helium hood… Tried it and it didn’t work, although I pulled it off after 30 seconds so that’s probably the problem… I just panicked a bit…. I kept the gas and the gear in my car, was worried there wouldn’t be enough gas left for another attempt so I just left it while I figured out what I was going to do… I was at my mum’s house then one day and she went looking for something in my car and spotted it all… So she obviously took it away and dumped it somewhere…. I’m probably gonna head out tomorrow and buy the gear again and give it another bash…
From what i gather from this method u need someone else to make it work propperly, so i view it as a less effective method than smoking a shit load of fags hoping for cancer, unless someone there to help
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Europe.
Ireland
U.K and can’t hold on much longer.Death is on my mind 24/7
Colorado, USA.
Belgium. @noom, same.
Quebec… a french province in Canada.
New Orleans
noom I know the feeling, ……… holidays just amke it worse all the way around.
I don’t know the statitics, yet we all know that suicides increase around the holiday season.
blackmist, ………… was out west a few months ago, I went thru 4 Corners from Az, and drove across southern colorado, it is a beautiful place.
My ash;s eventually will be spread just south of Flagstaff in Oak Creek Canyon, just before reaching Sadona Az headed south.
Thats if they can read intructions I wrote out a year ago,
Ok, at first I was not gonna share the country I live in, but I don’t really care. Netherlands. Bet you didn’t expect that…
Uk. South West.
You Europeans are so cool,……….. all I understand is English and can’t spell it worth a poop.
Is this site in english in the netherlands ? I mean with technology today, the site could be being translated in cyberspace.
London u.k
@cauca, this site is in English for all countries.
New York City,US home of fashion 😀
Chicago, Illinois, USA
US the state looks like a mitten. @caucajan I should’ve guessed your from New Orleans by your screen name. Also I know someone else from the netherlands and they type english fluently along with dutch. I don’t think the site is translated.
Within the occupied territory, formerly the United States, of the Federal Occupational Force. 😀
Well I see we are from all over the place, I guess its just when people have time to be here.
I’m ………………. very alone !!!! Even with all of you.
I’m ………………. very scared.
I am not at peace, I watched these NDE’s videos and am still afraid of death, the physical deliberate end of ones own life.
It has to be Im upset with the method I’m left with.
I easily would swallow 30, 40, 50 pills if I had something that would work.
I have in the past failed to produce the gas I was after, ……….. Yet I was at peace when I dumped all the chemicals in the buckets.
I wonder why I can be Okay with a certain way, and yet not okay with another ? It has to be fear.
Who knows me and my AA sponsor were talking about I need a miracle, I told him a miracle for me right now would be a Jet at altitude flushing it’s toilet and a huge Ice Turd Ball would crash through the roof and kill me, LOL.
We both laughed, he’s attempted suicide in the past and he understood what I was saying.
Ur sponser sounds like a legend. Ive always wanted to jump… feel like flying for a while… the freedom must be amazing but i can do it here
Toronto, Canada
northern ireland
any1 serious and want 2 do this?
Ireland, south…
The Caribbean on the island of Trinidad and Tobago.
Does anyone else take walks after 2 or 3 in de mornen?
Yes…it is an amazing world then…at least if you are somewhat rural. All quiet, dark, and peaceful…alone in the only world that really matters…the one between your ears. 😀
Ireland, Rep of here.
‘seems to be alot of micks online 🙂
ear phones in tunes blaren walken down by a river that leads to this quay of sorts that done sduch a way that half it really rough and the other side really calm and there this seat that litterally too steps away from a drop in the water. I love it so much!
@mindhewn – doesn’t say a whole lot for the country…!
@dreamboat
lol
true that 😉
Hey we are in the middle of a recession ;-p
So is the rest of the world Procel…!!
@mindhewn @Procel what age are you guys?
what age are all you guys anyway?
I’m 21.
haha, hivemind!
@mindhewn Wow, great minds…..!
I’m 28
Just turned 18 couple months back
Oh right… are you guys from Dublin? I’m from Waterford.
I was born in Swords, now living in Meath (outside Drogheda).
Down in the lovely county clare… well i live in galway from time to time but Clare is always home for me
Right… like a suicidal triangle of Ireland..!
Bermuda triangle has moved :-p
I’m 51. I was told for 40 something years that we were Irish then someone did a really good family tree.
The truth is America is the great Melting Pot, I dentify myself as of Europeans descent, yet there is alot of mixing going on over here.
As long as I’m alive I will allways be a Human Being, whats left after death are the reemains of a human being.
Whats happens next is anyones guess, I like billions of other human beings wish and hope for, have 6th type of sense that there is an existance after this life.
There may not be anything afterwards.
I wish there were guns available in Ireland… I reckon that’d be the easiest way to go… I could manage one quick squeeze of a trigger but all other methods seem to take more time / pain / willpower…
I’m 19… and I live in Calgary, Canada
@dreamboat. If u look hard enough u can find a gun anywhere. Limerick and dubline have certain areas that such a thing would be easily found, not to mention the north but i dont see why u need it, jump!
F*** jumping man, i’m not great with heights…..! I’ve done a bunjee jump before and it’s hard enough then to force yourself to jump, doing it without a chord isn’t something I could override myself to do…. I reckon it’d be difficult for me to just walk through Limerick / Dublin and pick up a gun, I think you’d need to know someone, and i’m not connected with anybody involved with guns….
If u drunk and in enough of a state it shouldnt be too hard. there again ive never tried to jump… kinda hard down here not many high buildings. walk enough streets in the dark nd ull either find a gun or someone will make u not need the gun if u cetch me
please dont do the last bit actually
I invested in all the kit required for a helium hood… Tried it and it didn’t work, although I pulled it off after 30 seconds so that’s probably the problem… I just panicked a bit…. I kept the gas and the gear in my car, was worried there wouldn’t be enough gas left for another attempt so I just left it while I figured out what I was going to do… I was at my mum’s house then one day and she went looking for something in my car and spotted it all… So she obviously took it away and dumped it somewhere…. I’m probably gonna head out tomorrow and buy the gear again and give it another bash…
From what i gather from this method u need someone else to make it work propperly, so i view it as a less effective method than smoking a shit load of fags hoping for cancer, unless someone there to help