i always knew the feeling was in there somewhere, just didnt know what it was until i was 11….but since i was 6 now tht i rlly look at it….im 17 now tho.
Mine started at about 15. I am now 54. They are still there and getting stronger.
Usually, things are shitty and I tell myself if things don’t change, I’m checking out.
Sometimes it takes days, weeks, months. Those are all pretty short periods of time when compared against a lifetime.
And then things change…either with time, or steps that I took. Because…if I’m gonna check out, I wanna make sure I did everything absolutely possible before I did give up. And some of those changes may require to be HUGE.
But really, how huge can they be compared to death?
Since my preteen years. Couple of decades.
However since my family brainwashed me with hope I am still here.
And the fact that life throws those curve balls making things. seem to get better.
But I have finally been able to erase that hope and that brainwashing and I am on my way out.
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Somewhere around age six (:
Or was it five? I’m trying to remember.
I just turned 17, so about 8 years.
half of my life.
i always knew the feeling was in there somewhere, just didnt know what it was until i was 11….but since i was 6 now tht i rlly look at it….im 17 now tho.
since i was 10. im 16 now.
Since I was 9, so a total of 12 years.
Mine started at about 15. I am now 54. They are still there and getting stronger.
Usually, things are shitty and I tell myself if things don’t change, I’m checking out.
Sometimes it takes days, weeks, months. Those are all pretty short periods of time when compared against a lifetime.
And then things change…either with time, or steps that I took. Because…if I’m gonna check out, I wanna make sure I did everything absolutely possible before I did give up. And some of those changes may require to be HUGE.
But really, how huge can they be compared to death?
Since my preteen years. Couple of decades.
However since my family brainwashed me with hope I am still here.
And the fact that life throws those curve balls making things. seem to get better.
But I have finally been able to erase that hope and that brainwashing and I am on my way out.