My life is in shambles….. I’ve managed to push everyone that I care about away, and now I’m alone. The sad part is is that I’ve got No one to blame but myself…..how pathetic. I have been left with nothing…and no one, and that’s exactly what I deserve. I wish I could go back……go back before all this shit started….And do it right the 1st time……
Tomorrow 27JAN2012 will mark the 1 month “anniversary” of my suicide attempt…..Hell I don’t event know what that means…My life hasn’t gotten any better and I’m still lying with my face on the floor…..*sigh* 1 month….I guess it really isnt that big of a deal….but One day at a time, right?
Some days are easier than most, but suicide is always in the dark shadows of my mind. * Is this normal?* hell who is it to say what normal is……
I’ve been working out 3 times a day everyday for 2-3 hours each session and eating right under 1500 calories….my coach says it’s not healthy, and I know it’s not. BUT its better than cutting or burning or suicide right??? anyways….my coach said if I don’t handle it then they will…..But I really don’t feel like I’m doing anything wrong….just keeping busy…..keeping the voices quite….AND atleast when I do finally commit suicide, I can be buried with a six pack right? lol Sorry for rambling!
I’m falling apart…lets face it….
There’s nothing.
There’s no one.
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I’m always here to talk, if you want to
Hi. I layed with my face on the floor and cried today too. So I can’t give any advice. But I heard you.
Unfortunately talking will not help anyone, but if you want to talk, we can hear you.
@Baal – inserting your negativity certainly doesn’t help anyone – it a good think almost all generalizations are false
always dawg