The only time anyone will finally realize that something s wrong, it will be to late for me. I’m starting to think it is to late, for fucks sake mom, I showed you my fresh cuts and you never even asked if I was okay.Why won’t anyone see that I just want help, that I want to be loved or cared for. My tears are real, I just want someone to tell that I have something to live for. Just fucking save me. I don’t wanna do this anymore.
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Don’t want to deal with trying to get people to see you right? and understand you? I’m just negative against cutting, it’s self harm and just shouldn’t be done. (Only) in my mind do I view it as people are trying to get attention. People keep going back to cutting when things get bad thinking it will magically make things better. and again, just in my mind it’s an attention getter. People don’t need to do it, go suck on an icecube .. that’s painful. If you want help make a goal to get better, have objectives and stick to them. Say that you would like to talk to a therapist, if the first one doesn’t fit you move onto the next one. Nothing’s wrong with you ¬¬
I’ve tried so hard. I’ve asked my parents to take me to a therapist, But apparently I’m the perfect child so they refuse to believe that something is wrong with me. I cut because thats the only thing that makes me feel anymore. Yea go ahead call me an attention seeker. Maybe I am. I just want someone to tell what the point of life is.
Yes please don’t take offense from my view point it’s not fair. . That’s what I’ve heard before, exactly. You got good reason I mean, some people say that it’s saved their lives. to an extremity. I understand you now I apologize. I’ve talked to many docs and now I finally have a therapist after being put away for being Manic.. since I’m so ‘unuseful please check out this cool forum
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there’s forums and a chatroom that you can get some really good help from.
I used to cut also sometimes i still do and my mother also expects me to be perfect. Your mom can’t accept the fact that your not ok maybe because she feels that if your not ok it means she has failed as a mother i actually think thats my moms case. cutting does not mean your an attention seeker and those who say it is are idiots and have no understanding of it. If anything im sure cutting has helped you keep going dont give up on life theres so much to get done find something you love to do and do that. You do have something to live for i mean you know what its like to feel this way and you might be able to help others just like i’m trying to do. Just know your not alone there are many people out there who understand you and feel the same way that you do. You might not know any of us in here personally but you will find a friend in most of us. I’m here for you feel free to email me g_gen19@yahoo.com
I’m sorry that you have to go through that. Especially your mother like that. Maybe try a school counselor, since you’re unable to see a therapist? I don’t think anyone can tell you your point in life is. That’s apart of what life is – figuring out what we want to do here. You decide and figure that out – though I guess help is nice with that.
As for your mom it seems she can be tough to deal with, but don’t let her rule over you and run you down so much – if possible :/ Sorry can’t be of much more help.
@Taul: I realize you’re negative against cutting. And yes some people do it for attention. But I wouldn’t say cutting is purely for getting attention. And so what if it is for attention if you’re still depressed? Eh. I don’t think sucking on an ice cube will give the same relief or whatever you get from cutting. I’m cutter myself, and I just think you’re simplifying and stereotyping it. But ok. I don’t think it’s a particularly good habit either…
Yes. I don’t usually understand it, never really had the ‘urge to grab something and cut
I think gen19 has a point. Sometimes parents won’t accept their child is anything less than perfect because it makes them feel that they’ve failed. What they don’t see is that by not seeing their child as a person (complete with faults and problems) THAT’S what makes them failures as parents.
Is there anyone else you can talk to?
Maybe your mom thinks like so many others, that you’re just seeking attention or playing a game. While I have never intentionally cut myself, I have burned myself, hit myself and did things that cause me physical pain just so I could feel something, anything is better then the constant numbness. It’s also an affirmation of life, that we are still alive after all. If your mother will not listen to you, please see your school counselor. The counselor should try to help you. You could also sit your mother down and talk to her like an adult. Tell her how you feel. Be honest with her, try to keep your emotions out of it. Not only tell her how you feel, tell her why you feel that way, the worst thing that can happen is that she ignores you. Always remember, you are a child of this universe, you have every right to be here, even if those around you might make you think otherwise. You are worthy of love and respect.
Hun you also need to take into consideration the pain your mom feels !! She dosent want her daughter to be sad, it must kill her, so remember anyone can be in denial. As for you , no one can save you from yourself, but you can put in the foot work, and get some help only you can change things!! I see my shrink 2 times a month !! Your not alone !! And I also carry the track marks, cigarette burns, and cutting scars, to prove your not alone !
Read a little of my raw emotions, everything under (bits and pieces) are random pieces to book I’m writing, everything else is journal entry’s .
http://www.jlb462606.blogspot.com
Rubyredeyes7, you have everything to live for! Your whole life is ahead of you. Ruby, one thing it took me a long time to learn is that sometimes in life when no one around us will help us or believe in our pain, we just have to do it for ourselves. You’re so smart to ask for therapy and help. You know what you want and need. So as others have said, talk to the school counsellor, talk to your doctor, call a local help line and see if they can put you in contact with someone who can help you in your community. I used to hit my head against the wall of people I yearned to love me and help me but just didn’t have it in them. You know the old joke? Doctor, my head hurts when I hit it against the wall. / Stop hitting it against the wall, says the doctor.
There are tons of people out there who are trained to help you, want to help you, volunteer to help you, you just have to find them.