Apparently all I ever do is antagonize my sister, she told me today. She also told me to “go cut” myself. You know what? I might just take that order.
I’m sick of her using this against me. I never use her eating order against her. If I did my parents would get shitty with me.
I haven’t seen the school counsellor this year because she sees my sister, and I don’t want her comparing stories. I don’t talk to my friends anymore because they have their problems. Who’s left? It seems my sister has taken everyone. Her problems are always worse than mine.. therefore my depression doesn’t need to be acted on. Apparently.
I’d just like to scream in everyone’s faces, “I’m here too.”
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I’m here, I care about you. There will always be someone I promise.
It’s difficult to be in the shadow of a sibling. Is there another councillor you could talk to, perhaps? And don’t be afraid to talk to your friends. Just because they have problems of their own doesn’t mean they can’t be there for you – sometimes it helps to lean on each other. And if they didn’t have problems, how could they even hope to try and understand yours? And then there’s here – you can talk here. There are people here who understand and will listen. You are not alone.
indifference, I know EXACTLY what you mean. My dad divorced the woman that gave birth to me and married the woman I call mom. My mom was young when she married my dad and she became pregnant and had my baby sister. As you can imagine me and my older sister from a different marriage were held to a much different standard then my youngest sister. We nicknamed her “precious” cause whatever she wanted, she got. She would lie about stuff and got me and my oldest sister beatings for things we didn’t do and we would get beat for things “precious” got away with. So yeah, I can relate to you. My childhood was a living hell, but you know what, me and my baby sister are extremely close now. She’s one of the reasons I have not killed myself because I do not want to hurt her. Life is funny that way. I’m not saying to try and get along with her cause me and my sister could not for any reason. I’m not saying that it will get easier, I’m just saying that going through this will make you stronger and more empathic to the sufferings of others. You’ve already proven that by dealing with all this on your own rather then burdening your friends with it. That quiet strength and self sacrifice is noble, never ever forget that, you are a good person. If you ever want to vent about your sister or just want to compare stories, we can do it in replies here.
Nymathin, I didn’t come on here for a couple of days and never saw any replies. That sucks, I hate it when children are treated differently. My sister just twists everything I say to make me sound like the biggest ***** on the planet.
Thanks all of you.
Siblings aren’t always the easiest to live with. Considering you can’t really choose your family.
As for cutting, if you haven’t already just know the consequences and addiction.
I can’t really relate – but I’m sorry you have to live with a sister that attacks you. Again, I’d say to try to be above her. Though doesn’t mean you cant defend yourself in some way(but not overboard). Anywho, dont take her words to heart – I don’t know how else to advise it… :/
As for the counsellor, I would hope they wouldn’t compare you two. But maybe you could at least try? You never know, and doesn’t mean you have to go back. And friends, they’re meant to be talked with. But if you can’t seem to approach them with it, I hope you find some outlet( including here) that you can better vent and share your feelings. 🙂
Sorry, if I didn’t help all too much – kinda rambled aimlessly…Don’t worry, we know you’re not the biggest ***** on the planet.