Ok , so my life is dull im a guy 19 , still a virgin , no girlfriend , and i have 1 and a half friends i say half because im not really sure if that second person really even likes me ; so im fat not really attractive i had one real girlfriend but she dumped me and started dateing my younger more attractive brother . I really have one friend and we hang out all day i dont really have a terrible past but i juss feel so empty i hate my life i have a job and use my money to smoke weed all day because thats the only good thing i have in my life right now . I juss feel like my social and sex life is dead so why shouldnt i be i have no intrest in anything lately i jus work go home and smoke with my one friend sometimes my friend is with other people so i smoke by myself and watch tv or play 2k11 but wen im depressed and i smoke weed i rap and write songs down in my phone it helps temporarily but in reality i know im a nobody and ill never be a nobodyy i have no one except my family and 1 friend who cares about me im a nobody ……… Im a Nobody ………..
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You are not a nobody, your someone, and you matter..More than you can ever imagine, don’t think your useless, don’t think people care, because I know not one thing about you [Except for what on this page], and i’m sitting here typing this for you, because I care and want you to see, you mean something. Writing and rapping [singing] is an amazing way to releave stress and let feelings out. Go out, meet people..
Stay strong friend, Live long, live life, love life, love love. Little Dueces, Big homie.
Check out Suicidal Tendencies, Machine Head’s Burn My Eyes & Fear Factory, just keep on writing lyrics, the word of your “soul†if you will & creating songs i aint gonna bullshit you but who knows that might give you something to live for.
music & art are the only thing’s that make life worth living, ,& there are always brothels out there cutting out a 3 month wait with a girl J, what kind of hip hop groups are you into, I like Mobb Deep, Tupac, Nas, Gangstarr, .etc, we are all “Nothingâ€, the goal for every individual is to fill that abysmal nothingness.. With their own “something†,
I just made an account so I could reply to this, I will tell you what I was never fat but always found myself unattractive; but reading this post made me think of myself when I was younger. I am 21 now graduated 08 I didn’t have sex till christmas during my senior year. I also dated a girl for 4 years after high school, I have slept with 40+ women sense then. I started smoking weed before starting my senior year.
Now, I will tell you what. My friend was always 200+lbs around 240-260 and got some girls after high school that I wanted, surprised the hell out of me. I have found a lot of issues with pot however, I used to smoke because it made me happier, when the problem lies when you are not high; even though you are “sober” it is still in your system for some time and there was a time I stopped and after a week I started waking up earlier, feeling more motivated to do something, just wanted to get out. I still smoke, not as much and try only during the day.
Smoking by yourself is the worst idea, if you want to smoke ask someone random; that weed should get you to say fuck it and ask a girl off facebook if you even have too. I wish I knew a little bit of what I know now being 22 in a couple months, I learned a lot even in the past year. Shit, I am high now typing this, I was just reading on depression because right now I feel like I am going no where, my future is foggy and because of that I don’t care. I smoke to much to care, which is why I need to quit smoking and for good. Drinking is not an alternative.
quit smoking that sht for starters. then use that money you save from not smoking and get a membership at a gym. get in shape while surrounding yourself with positive people. go to college. get a degree. be somebody.