Feel hopeless. Was with him for 6 months, not that long really, but oh boy did I fall in love with him. That feeling where I’d lie in bed feeling so content and warm just thinking about him, even better when he’d lie next to me. But then things changed and his ex came back into the picture, and he broke it, he broke my heart for her. and it hurts more than I can write down. I know he feels terrible, he has told me enough times but I can’t cope- i miss him so much. so I turned to cutting. and it felt good. it was such a release of emotions, and I finally felt free from the pain. I can still see his face though when I showed him my arm. He broke down and cried and begged me to stop. and now he’s helping me through this. ironic how its the ones who have hurt us are the ones who can also save us?
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Hello elle,
You would be very wrong…he will only hurt you again…and you are only trying to manipulate and hurt him. Let him be. He is not the one for you. No one can save you but you…he is merely a distraction…but you will cause great damage….to make things easier for you to avoid yourself.
You can not find completion through another….it never works…not for long…please learn to be enough for yourself. Would rather talk about why you are so scared to be alone or why you chose to share your pain….put it in his face so to speak…can you answer these questions? To grieve the loss of love is natural…to torment it like a cat with a mouse…not so much.
Hope you find yourself one day
Amakua
i know lots of guys are dumb when it comes to ex’s! i cant tell u to stop cutting cause i do it myself so that would be like telling a kid to shut up when you cant be quite you self, but you should try to stop and i know this would kill you ,but its time to move on…
Sometimes life leaves us no choice but to move on from the people we love but that does not mean we stop loving, caring and missing them.