my depression is getting so bad again. i don’t know if my meds are working. I don’t know what to do. The only thought i really have on how to fix it is to kill myself. if im dead, none of my problems will matter anymore. i don’t really want to kill myself, i just don’t want to go on like this. when im off work all i can think of is when can i go back to that stability, but when i’m there i just want to escape and get away.
i just fucking want this to be over. why the fuck can’t i get this right? my meds start to work and then they quit, why can’t i cathc a fucking break.
Last time i felt like this i ended up in the psych ward for a week, i really don’t want to go back, but it feels like it did before. ‘
Is this my only life from now on? coasting by until i end up in the psycho ward until i finally do myself in? How is that supposed to be motivating?
Im so freaking tired of this
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Yes, it does sound like you need to try something new, sounds like the psych ward didn’t do much good the last time. If you don’t think the meds are working, you need to talk to your shrink about maybe changing the meds. If you’re seeing a councillor, maybe they are not the right one and you should try a different one?
I hear ya about how the meds help for a little while but then quit on ya. I think it’s something to do with the body building an immunity to them :/ . I’ve have like 8+ meds now (trying them each for at least 2 months) and they always just wear off eventually. Sorry to hear it’s happening to you too
I can really relate to how you feel when depressed are you bipolar or just depressed??im sorry you feel so bad make an emergency meeting with your shrink and see if they can sort it good luck..