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So…every one at school and at home, etc. known me as a bright girl, very playful and just happy. But…i am not. I have been bullied since 2nd grade just because i was so bigger than everyone else. People used me just for my money and turned their backs on me. I had been in love with someone for 5 years and everyone also made fun of me because of that. In the 6th grade i moved to a new school and thought everything was going to be fine. But no. I was also used, have been left behind, had been called many names. I always tried to fit in with everyone else. I tried to be skinny, I tried to get good grades as for people expect from an Asian, I try to associate with many people. But 5 people left me in that year alone. In the 7th grade, I got even bigger. I moved 2 sizes up. From a 4 to a 6. Everybody hated me, i felt that i wasn’t wanted. 2 people had left me.And in my current year, I had changed completely i was still happy on the outside but completely broken on the inside i am currently battling depression on my own. I have to face this guy that always call me a *****, whore, ****, ugly and tells his friend to bully me whenever I am near them. My bestfriend and my love had left me just from protecting him and the one he loves. He told me that i am worth nothing to him, told me to cut/kill myself. My aunt has cancer and my grandpa is smoking and drinking every night. My other grandpa has medical issues. I also make myself vomit everyday since everyone is telling me that i am so fat.
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I’m quite a bit older, but I can tell you that bullying is worse in middle school than anywhere else. It seems to pretty much end around the 9th grade because people mature, and the few that want to remain bullys don’t get the thrill from doing it because no one is laughing anymore.
Don’t make yourself throw up. Stomach acid will destroy your esophagus.
At your age, it is fairly easy to get into better shape. Just exercise 15-30 minutes a day, and be sure to eat fruit and vegetables. I used to put on some music, and exercise through about five songs. It goes by pretty quickly.
your story is not suckish.
and i’m sorry that you have had to deal with such jerks and idiots. you Must remember that their opinions don’t matter.
you’ve probably heard of karma.. well, i believe that they’ll get what they deserve.
you just be yourself please. and don’t force yourself to throw up. a little secret that i came across when trying to loose weight is to only eat when your hungry, and drink lots and lots of water. and if you do find yourself eating while you’re bored, try to snack healthy. (fruit is delicious!) also try to eat two or three balanced full meals a day. that should slow your snacking down.
if people are leaving you, then they may not really be your friends, and you might be better off without them. sometimes i like having people walk away from me. one less person for me to worry about, or for me to worry about offending.
and some dude is calling you names? that is completely immature. pay him no mind. give him zero attention. and keep your chin up! do you speak or write another language? use that language. i’m trying to learn japanese so express ideas that i don’t want other people to hear me say/think/write in english
and don’t forget. you shouldn’t have to change for your friends. be yourself. the people that like to be around you when you are being your silly self are the people that you want to be your friends.
good luck beautiful! what grade are you in now?