How am I? I’m awful. I can’t describe how terrible I’m feeling at the moment. I want to cry but I just think I’d feel more pathetic. I hate it and no one realises. I hate everyday and I just don’t want to deal with at all.
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i feel the same way, but everyday i remember myself that it must be someone special for me out there ^^ if u wanna talk with me just tell
Sometimes crying helps. Sometimes I feel like I’m trying to cry all the darkness out of myself but I never manage to get it all – there’s always some left so it can keep poisoning me and making more of itself so it never ends. But it takes some of the pressure off – like opening a valve – it makes it a bit more bearable, for a while. But no, I don’t think it ever does, truly, end. Sorry.
you’ll never get rid of all the darkness. actually you need just a little of it. must have positive and negative to have balance. they key to the universe. must have positive and a negative to make a spark or energy in all aspects. take the negative cable off a cars battery and try to start it with only the positive. doesn’t work.. you’re strong. keep your head up.
@Gabriel. I know there must be balance but the darkness isn’t negativity. It feeds on it and uses the negative in you to make itself strong so it can pull you in but it isn’t the same. Otherwise everyone who has negative thoughts/feelings would feel the pull – and they don’t.
Interesting thought – if we are ‘swallowed’ by our depression and then come out – which end do we come out of? Sorry for that. And sorry for the sidetrack.
if you get swallowed, there is only one way in and one way out. when you’re drowning try to swim toward the direction the bubbles are going. they only go up. you’ll find your way.
@Gabriel – actually there’s two ways out of most organisms. The digestive tract is basically a tube and although travel is supposed to be in one direction, it has been known to go the other way (at least until you get past the stomach).
It was just an aside and not meant to take things away from the OP and I hope that ThatsGonnaHurt is feeling a little better.
Amakua, I’m sorry I can’t chat about religion with you here. if you had read the guidelines and rules for this site, it is forbidden. if you need a Bible lesson, you could try reading one or try a different site. I believe the rules here also mention not judging others and courtesy. you’re way out of your boundary there .. the only evil I see around here is what is spewing from your keyboard. if you don’t like my profile , don’t read it. as for you having any real friends. well….