I want to die. I want to kill myself. I hate who I am. But at the same time, I want to live. I want to prove everyone wrong. I love to be me. I want to get out all my feelings, though. I may seem like I have everything, but we all have different breaking points. Please just listen.
I’m in eigth grade. There are these two guys, Matthew and Thomas. I’ve known Thomas since 7th grade, when he moved here. I dated a guy named Eli that winter, but when we broke up, I started liking Thomas. We almost went out, but never actually did. It’s been like that ever since I found out he liked me. Then, this winter, Matthew moved here. I instantly fell for him, but I still Liked Thomas a lot too. Matthew became popular with my group of friends (including Thomas), too. Me and Matthew sort of had a thing, and we hugged and he kissed me on the cheek. Caleb, one of our friends, found out, and told Thomas. Thomas and Matthew decided to sort of have a competition to see who could win me over, and they want me to decide. But, I can’t just decide between them- I like them both a lot, and can’t stand to hurt either of them. But so I found out two of my friends liked Matthew- Ruby and Isabelle. He accidentally went out with Ruby, broke up with her for me. Now, he’s going out with Isabelle but claims he likes me more. I can’t stand to see them together though. It hurts SO much… and even worse I’m trying to tell matthew I think I love him. Ugh…
And then there’s my friends- I don’t feel like I can trust any of them, and none of them understand me. They are all annoying a lot, but they’re the only ones I have. And my parents. They fight ALL THE TIME. They say they want a divorce but won’t get one. Â It’s horrible… and then my brother is abusive, and I have all this stress from school. All my teachers are horrible. I feel like my world is falling apart, but I’m So young… It hurts, and I can’t bear it. PLEASE HELP!
2 comments
Well for the guy stuff….I would say Thomas but its really your decision. As for friends, I feel the same way sometimes, but they’ll be there for you no matter what. You should talk to your parents about how this is affecting you, and I’m sorry to hear they want a divorce. Your brother, is well, your brother. Most siblings are that way, but if its really bothering you tell him to stop, fight back, or tell your parents.
That all sounds very confusing. You should just let things play out, then fate will decide. I normally flip a coin. I don’t know whether you have every watched Harry Hill but he has I similar dilemma for example if he like an orange but also likes an apple, two people wearing giant costumes will fight it out.