i am going completely crazy. i can’t stop these suicide impulses and the cutting is getting worse. and i dunno if i can survive the few hours until my friend gets here. i am in so deep
i’m so done. i can’t do this i can’t i am always trying and trying and all i want to do is try and find the pills my mom is hiding from me. i’ve called and called people. no one is there. i can’t do this i’m done
no no no dont do any thing which may hurt u………………….life is so beautiful……just open u r eys………atleast 3 people u can find in u r life who loves u a lot…………………………….dont be so selfish, think about u r parents,u r friends,u r family,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i am telling this as friend,dont get angry at me……………
hey what happend? i am feeling scare!!!! r u okie ?…………atleast think about u r mom…………..just remember friend PAIN = POSITIVE ATTITUDE IN NAGATIVE SITUATION …………….. IF U R THERE PLEASE REPLY SOMETHING , I AM REALLY FEELING SOMETHING BAD…………………….
ok…..i dont know what nd how to tell…………………even i am feeling lonliness in my life…..but i never thought abt death………death is just like a black hole u never come out from that…….i hope u r okay now………whenever get hurt ,get a long shower nd refresh, do the things which will keep u happy, nd forget abt the one’s who dont bother abt u nd your happiness,……… wake up 2morrow with new hope in u r life, …………………………………………..
i just cannnn’t get myself to control these impulses. that’s the thing. there is nothing actually WRONG in my life I am just totally depressed all day and night and I can’t stop cutting myself and trying to kill myself. it’s awful but i lose it and just go wild and can’t stop myself
i don’t know how many more times i can go through this before my screams and my pain and my body and my mind just shut me down and crumble me to nothing
i tell u what has saved me many times is my chiwawa, been down on the floor in a crumpled mess n she wud not leave me alone, she wud not let me go down into that deep dark hole i was plummenting into,….hmmmm n shes only 6lbs!
i hid it so no one can take it away from me. : ( i’m going to try going on a walk. if that doesn’t work i don’t know what will. i hope i don’t bleed through my pants tho. i’m too weak to get myself fixed up
spark~ being here with ppl who understand , means we FINALLY found a place to ‘fit’ in, ppl who are in situations like us, until i found this site i did not have this ‘comfort’ in my life……
great now i’ve started breaking things to weaponize them. i am seriously getting out of control. went on the walk though so that was a good thing. my friend should be here soon.
sparkeyes… I hope your friend has arrived and you two are together… and I hope this allows you some time to enjoy a smile with some good company. This rough chapter will pass… Keep moving forward.
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WHATS UP FRIEND?
i am going completely crazy. i can’t stop these suicide impulses and the cutting is getting worse. and i dunno if i can survive the few hours until my friend gets here. i am in so deep
OH………………
i’m so done. i can’t do this i can’t i am always trying and trying and all i want to do is try and find the pills my mom is hiding from me. i’ve called and called people. no one is there. i can’t do this i’m done
DONT WORRY FRIEND……..be happy……………….i dont know how to tell anything ,coz i am so bad in English,so even i dont know do u understand my English.:(
i already have a huge knife but it isn’t cutting deep enough and just making me angrier inside
your english is good
no no no dont do any thing which may hurt u………………….life is so beautiful……just open u r eys………atleast 3 people u can find in u r life who loves u a lot…………………………….dont be so selfish, think about u r parents,u r friends,u r family,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,i am telling this as friend,dont get angry at me……………
i’m not angry at you. i’m angry at me. but i am so on the edge here
english became big problem in my life…………………this is a foreign language to me, i know english from last one year….so……………
no dear dont do anything which will hurt u……..can i ask wat is the actual problem?
i’m done. i’m going to find some glass, maybe that will be sharp enough. can’t find my pills.
whats up?
please …………….pleaaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee dont……i am requesting u……..wat is the problem in u r life?
give at least little time to u r self nd think………….once again.,this is life not a game……….
it’s the impulses. i can’t get them under control
hey what happend? i am feeling scare!!!! r u okie ?…………atleast think about u r mom…………..just remember friend PAIN = POSITIVE ATTITUDE IN NAGATIVE SITUATION …………….. IF U R THERE PLEASE REPLY SOMETHING , I AM REALLY FEELING SOMETHING BAD…………………….
WHAT WAS THE ACTUAL PROBLEM FRIEND?
IF U DONT MIND CAN U TELL?
Sparky
What’s wrong. Just take a deep breath and hold yourself together.
ok…..i dont know what nd how to tell…………………even i am feeling lonliness in my life…..but i never thought abt death………death is just like a black hole u never come out from that…….i hope u r okay now………whenever get hurt ,get a long shower nd refresh, do the things which will keep u happy, nd forget abt the one’s who dont bother abt u nd your happiness,……… wake up 2morrow with new hope in u r life, …………………………………………..
i just cannnn’t get myself to control these impulses. that’s the thing. there is nothing actually WRONG in my life I am just totally depressed all day and night and I can’t stop cutting myself and trying to kill myself. it’s awful but i lose it and just go wild and can’t stop myself
im here for u too sparkeyes~~~
Spark~ wer’s everyone at while u r doing this? noone home but u?
i’m trying so hard. but i feel like i should be trying harder.
the broken glass is so sharp it’s scaring me. it’s the sharpest i’ve found so far
your feeling scare becuase u WANT TO ENJOY U R LIFE……………….let u r nagative thoughts to go away from u……………
no one’s home. i have to hold on for 2 more hours until my friend gets here
come on spark 2 hrs thats all… can u throw the glass away?try?
i don’t know how many more times i can go through this before my screams and my pain and my body and my mind just shut me down and crumble me to nothing
i tell u what has saved me many times is my chiwawa, been down on the floor in a crumpled mess n she wud not leave me alone, she wud not let me go down into that deep dark hole i was plummenting into,….hmmmm n shes only 6lbs!
i understand spark~ did u put the glass down?
i hid it so no one can take it away from me. : ( i’m going to try going on a walk. if that doesn’t work i don’t know what will. i hope i don’t bleed through my pants tho. i’m too weak to get myself fixed up
spark~ being here with ppl who understand , means we FINALLY found a place to ‘fit’ in, ppl who are in situations like us, until i found this site i did not have this ‘comfort’ in my life……
thank you spark~ ill b around if u need me……. <3
great now i’ve started breaking things to weaponize them. i am seriously getting out of control. went on the walk though so that was a good thing. my friend should be here soon.
Sparky
Are you there? Are you alright?
sparkeyes… I hope your friend has arrived and you two are together… and I hope this allows you some time to enjoy a smile with some good company. This rough chapter will pass… Keep moving forward.