I think to myself (i”m not always suicidal but it still helps me! ) I can always kill myself later.
If I can just try and face one more day, one more obstacle, one more test at life, and if it’s too hard then I can try to fight it by saying I’ll wait it out, ill see what tomorrow brings because I can always die the next time if things get to unbearable, eventually I get through the next obstacle and I’m able to stick around for the next one.
Just say to yourself If this experience is too much to bear I can always kill myself LATER. Just wait ONE more hour, day, week, challenge.
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Yeah thats pretty much what I think, I am tired of falling into a place with no hope though and I suppose Ive just got a glimmering bit that always carry’s me forward kinda, but yeah trick is deffinitely to always keep thinking ‘later’, although i just dont want to keep spending my life in a dark couldren lol
I’ve been doing that on and off for about 25 years since I turned 18…woteva gets you through…:-)
I’ve been doing that since september 2011 and tbh I don’t see myself using this strategy any longer
why ? cause at some point I started to ask myself: “what are you waiting for to happen that would have you change your mind ? I thought you were more realistic than that !”
The problem is when you hit the obstacles really hard and are taken completely out of stride losing all chance.
I am realistic hence why I’m still here I also ask myself which Is worse being depressed and wanting to kill myself or being cold dead and rotting underground is that realistic enough for ya??I’m not always depressed so it’s only what I think about when I wanna nail myself as I said whatever it takes to get u through
Hopefully something changes your mind we’re here for each other ((((hug))))
easy molly, I wasn’t trying to insult the strategy (by calling it unrealistic) .. all I did was explain why I no longer use it 🙂
((hug))
molly, did you ever do the date thing ?
you tell yourself you can’t leave before a certain date because it would interfere with a relative birthday ?
I won’t allow myself to leave before april 15th because it’d interfere with my mother (04/06) and cousin (04/11) birthdays .. after that, I’m afraid I’ll have ran out of concern for them 🙁