I’m done for now.. I think

Yesterday was Monday. Meaning I had to go back to school after spring break. Ugh! Took Advil to school. I knew I’d need it. And sure enough. I took 3 but didn’t help. I cried in 3rd period but was able to make it to the bathroom without everyone seeing. And then I cried in fifth this time no one saw me.. I just wanted to go so badly yesterday. I wanted to be dead. I’m already dead anyways. Just my body’s still moving. But it doesn’t feel like I’m inside. So I did my research and how to go. But then someone made me stay. Well I wouldn’t say made becuz it’s my choice. But I can’t leave him. So I’m still here in this hell for a bit longer. Last night I cried hard! And I mean hard. So pathetic hey? My eyes oat the price today. All swollen and they hurt so much. My friend noticed. I told her I was just tired….. If I would of left yesterday I wouldn’t be here (: but then I’d be leaving people I’m not really ready to leave. So I still have some thinking to do…..

My friend. I have talke to her in a while and I’m worried. Te last time she talked to me she was going to kill herself but then messaged me saying “failed, parents caught me” and I haven’t talked to her since. This happened Saturday night… I miss her <3
Also I badly want to give up. At least for a couple day. I'm just tired and sick of this. Suck of always fighting the urge to cut or hurt myself. Or other things….
I'm done for now

-Morgan….RawrImaTurtle….