close to the end …..

I give up ,I don’t think anymore in such bullshit as happiness ,it’s just a stupid moment that ends quickly and returns pains stronger than ever .Do u know the feeling of loving someone that doesn’t love you back,seeing him everyday with that smile ,that face and not being able even to talk to him ,well he seems interested in you sometimes but u hate yourself that much that you think that he probably feels sorry about you. Do u know the feeling of being in a room full of people that hate you and show it in every possible way ? And the stupidest fact is that you haven’t done anything.Do u know the feeling of crying for hours and then realizing that it doesnt change any thing it just makes you worse, of cutting yourself and wanting to die .to want it that badly ,let me tell you that those are the worst feeling in the world and feel lucky If u don’t have them