That feeling where you are litterally on the edge.. you can not see anything but blackness, nothing is bright no more. It is just dark. All the time. You don’t feel like your getting anywhere.. and you just don’t want to be here. You start to think, maybe all this misery will end if i just end it now it wont take long, all this pain i go through i could end it all, it wouldn’t take long, yeah it would hurt but isn’t it better to just die than face misery everyday. but then when in comes to it theres something that stops you. you wish you could do it. No matter how many times you try though it just won’t. I do this all the time. I get really depressed. I cut. That makes me feel better for a bit I guess but then I get the odd thoughts of have an overdose, hang yourself. But if I go to do it I can’t. It’s like I think I want to die but in reality I don’t I just want to be happy again, and be confident. I hope I can get through this and I know with this website I probably can.. so I am not going to give up.. What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger<3
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Ok. What’s the plan?
@duke of marmalade just keep on hanging in there.. get through all my therapy with the psychairtrists and that, try to think more positive and then in a few years time look back and think yeah i went through a bad time then but im still here now and i got through it
Sounds like a good plan.
I went to the doctors yesterday and he asked me where I hoped to be in 10 years. It’s almost as if he read my last post on here. I just don’t know anymore.
I’m trying to separate all of the things I like from the things I don’t and focus on that.
@duke of marmalade yeah that sounds good i should try doing that too:)
You said yesterday that you couldn’t go to school. Did you mean that literally and if not are you having problems there.
@duke of marmalade i can’t the doctor has took me out f school..
What happened when you went before.
@duke of marmalade bullying, too much anxiety, skipped lessons if i was scared to go into them, i’dd be on my own crying all the time
I think you are on the right track so just keep going. If you need to talk about anything, I usually hang around Internet forums about suicide.
@duke of marmalade well thankyou very much same to you:)
Really. You don’t think its weird to hang around suicide forums 🙂
no not at all:)
Your going to be ok. I’m very confident about you.
@Duke-i do the same too its not weird. to me its normal.
You are wise, you recognize that you wish to live your life free of the pain, and you understand that suicide can end the pain, but you also understand that you don’t want to be dead.
When we feel trapped in painful situations suicidal thoughts will sometimes haunt us.
Learning to separate our desire to be free of pain from our suicidal thoughts can be a lifetime of effort.
@Fellingempty
I hope ur okay 🙂
And you haven’t skyped with me
meany I’m bored
Hi
My Gurmukhi is not very good I only recognise the common words but I can get all of the translations online. I actually have all of the old tape recordings but I never see the point in listening to something I don’t understand even if it’s therapeutic. 99.9% of the people who listen to it don’t understand a word because its an ancient language. I leave you will this.
ਮà©à¨‡à¨† ਜਿਤ੠ਘਰਿ ਜਾਈਠਤਿਤ੠ਜੀਵਦਿਆ ਮਰ੠ਮਾਰਿ ॥मà¥à¤‡à¤† जितॠघरि जाईठतितॠजीवदिआ मरॠमारि
It roughly translates as:
To reach your True Home after you die, you must conquer death while you are still alive.
I hope that we can both go home
@attheend oh im sorry i went to bed pretty early last night! i will as soon as your on:)!
@theguardian thankyou very much