Fuuckd up day at the school. The people in my class is doing a lot better than me. I try so hard everyday. They talk and laugh, and they doing good. Just sitting alone, while the others have fun.
I don’t know what to do, because I love that education. I cut myself everyday in school. Only to keep the school issues out.
Thank you for reading this, and to the others, I am sorry for wasting your time.
SuicideTears ;'(
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I am sorry to hear that you have been cutting, i am also a cutter, i have scars the scars to prove it. It is so hard to get out of that cycle, it really is. Last time i cut was about 2 months ago, i used to cut everyday on any skin i could utilize. Yeah i wasnt picky, i even cut my face once.. Got a nice scar on my side from when i stabbed myself… So your desperation i can totally understand, i have been there, it can get better.. Im not saying its all roses and flowers because its not, i still have really bad days but i also have some good days… Today im feeling very positive.
Have you got a friend you can talk to? I am always here x
Thank you very much for your concern. I am very pleased with your post, and take it to me. It’s good that you know how I feel, that you understand me and can imagine my situation. eventhough I’m sorry to hear about your own proplems.
And yes I have a friend, but not one I can open up to. I’m a boy who cuts. And you probably know that the majority who cuts are girls. I am embarrassed and ashamed of it.
I’m not that good to make friends. I suffer from social anxiety and I am very shy.
But thank you. I will get back to you at another time. I do not think I even manage to speak out now here.
Overall, I’m glad you listened . Means a lot.
Apart from myself, i do not know any females who self harm, the people i know that also selfharm are male. It is nothing to be ashamed of, cutting is a survival method, helps us to keep going. It is a really unhealthy coping method, but the only one some of us have. I have other ways to cope in the fact i am a writer, i use words to express myself, written not spoken. If you want my email address i will happily pass it on, if i can help in any way. I am always here.
I am lucky enough to have a friend i can literally say anything to, he doesnt batter an eyelid, most of the time this kind of rant helps soo much!
I have to run now, but i am glad my reply helped in some way x