I really really can’t be bothered any more. I really do hate my life. Nothing EVER good happens to me.  I am always thinking of killing myself. How, when and where to kill myself constantly going through my head. People always say “It’s going to get better”. BULLSHIT. Things just get worse and worse. Something bad happens everyday. I’ve just had it. I just need to kill myself but I need to get it right. I have read up on so much of this and I still don’t know how to do it. I’m leaning towards hanging myself but have nowhere to do it.  If I found a gun, I wouldn’t even think about it, I would just put the gun in my mouth and shoot.
It’s so hard to find a job. I’ve had 2 jobs and both of which have ended. I didn’t get fired, it’s just they were temporary jobs and they didn’t have a place for me at the end. I have now been out of a job for a month now and I’m having to go on the stupid job seekers allowance for the fucking fourth time in my God damn life.
It hurts. Always hurting. I pray every night that I don’t wake up in the morning. I’m so tired. The only thing decent is my life is my Dog and my music. That’s all I like. My friends are okay but I rarely get to see them
I’m 20 years of age and I really need something to happen.
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Was in a similar situation in my mid 20’s.
And working temp jobs is a pain because you cannot sustain a lifestyle on that crap.
Having to look is one of the worst parts because you spend every day that you arent working a temp job looking for something else.
Whether it be online or pounding the pavement.
Harder for you because the economic situation in the world.
Honestly things get better and worse as time goes on.
It is a roller coaster.
And even if you put your best foot forward it can get smashed to bits.
Up to you to decide whether you want to ride the rollercoaster for life or jump off.
Either choice is valid but if you have any doubts keep riding.
Because death is the end to everything.