I’m depressed, always depressed, but rigth now I’m worst because I’ve been having troubles to sleep so I’m too sensitive and everything makes me feel bad.
I posted in my facebook something like “I know that if this night i took the decision of killing myself, I can count with the fingers of my hands the ones who will care and even them will get over it. But it doesn’t matter since I’m to coward to make the decision”
And my best friend got crazy and told me “I’m sick of you saying you want to kill yourself, if you want to then just do it and finish with your ‘misery’ but stop saying it when you know you have it all” I’m loosing the only person who cared for my suicidal thoughts when the only thing I’m silently asking for to him is support, I don’t know what to do because I don’t want to loose him but what he said is only making me feel worst…
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I feel your pain sweetheart, i really do. Your screaming for help for someone to grab hold of you and give you guidance, give you help.
That is a good thing, it means you want to carry on fighting. I can only hope someone listens to your desperate plea in your life. I wish i could give you a hug, help you start this process.
How old are you? Are you able to go to the doctors for anti depressants? If youbare at school do you have a trusted teacher you can talk to?
I am afraid though it sounds like you might have to take the first step in actually physically asking for help rather than hints.
Trust me on this, i spent best part of TEN years dropping hints, never got me anywhere, actually at one point i was so emaciated i didnt have the strenght to get out of bed, i slept 22 hours a day.. But alas even this hint wasnt big enough and started eating again myself.
Just have the courage to take the leap allowing someone to catch you, but you will need to reach out to them first x
Well I’m 15, almost 16 and I’ve already gone to doctors… when I was 12 I went to a psychologist that sent me to a psyshiatrist to take meds but I was getting better and my parents didin’t want me to take them so I lived since then actually fine until the last year and they took me again, this time with a psychotherapist and I unconsciously said her my problems were because my parents every-second fights. I don’t trust my teachers anymore, I told my physic teacher all of this and then she said in other class that I was insane or something… I didn’t want to lisent. Of course, we have a counselor but even I want to talk him, I just can’t when is the moment to
Sometimes that’s a defense mechanism. The guys I know in my life outside of here are generally the same way-they think they’re helping maybe or they don’t know what to say. I think it’s a guy thing. Natural instinct is to fix things and when they can’t they get frustrated. He doesn’t mean it.
Your not insane, just hurting alot. Mine started at three years old. Kind of hard to understand seen as it is the same age as my own daughter is now. I have had a few different diagnosis over the years, but i dont believe any of them, im starting over, from the begining.
Keep up with the therapy… Do you find it helps at all?
Emptiness7 is right. Guys try to “fix” things it’s in their nature. Same thing happened to me and he said the same thing to me that he’s just making things worse for me. I apologized for pulling him in my mess but told him that I just need to vent and someone to listen, care enough to just listen. I’m sorry that you’re feeling this way and so alone. We’re here to listen if you need to talk. I know it’s not the same as having him around but I hope we can help.
Your “best friend” gave you the worst advise ever. I am sure she/he is just frustrated but remember that you are worth life. You need to find someone who will listen and help you through this time in your life. I wish my brother would have reached out for help before he decided to take his life. He not only took his but mine as well. Remember that you are valuable and there will be times that are tough. Hang in there we will all be rewarded in some way at some time.
Wishing you the best. Stay strong…..
@emptiness7 Thanks for remind me that, yeah guys can be really annoying with it.
@crimson regret I can’t just say “mom, dad, I want to get back to therapy” because I’m supposed to be fine by the way I treat them right now. Anyway it didn’t really helped, she led the conversations so I couldn’t express my self in the right way. I now I’m not, that’s why I didn’t want to listen.
@zacurious You help, and I would like to know if you get to get back to your friendship, and how you did it.
@blackened fish He knows I’m not going to, that is one of the reasons he said that. He just doesn’t know how it feels so he can’t help in the right way… he said other things too but are too tough to repeat. I’ll try to remember what you said while I feel this way.
Thakns all of you, I didn’t expected all the support and it really made me feel better when I finally got home from school and I saw all your comments :’)
Angel, I suffer silently, no one knows about how much pain I am in, but I will say it is no way to live, but posting to everyone is also not the way to go. People do care, and as a guy, we will try and fix things, but we are stupid, so a llittle direction goes a long way. We will never just figure it out, you will have to shove our noses in it and not let go until we figure it out. Please stay strong, I know this isnt much, but its hard to think right now.
@Titanstrong It does mean a lot to me just the fact that you read it. And well I guess I’ll try to speak to him in a total clearly way so he can see what I was trying to do.
I decided that my “friend” is a jerk, I mean, I wanted to talk about what happened and he said “let’s let that on yesterday, don’t say anything else” I said OK and I’m not going to talk him for a while… Was I right doing that??