does my life matter… no one ever seems to care.. all i hear is yelling.. is there anyone out there.. to feel my pain.. to understand that for me there is no gain… maybe i should end it all…
they would be happier
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I feel that way too. All I ever do is get yelled at and criticised so I always think that I would be doing everyone a favor by taking my life. I know exactly how you feel. I’m here and I know your pain.
thank you… :l…. im here for you as well 🙂
So what’s wrong?
ive been suicidal and depressed for about 5 years now.. but here recently.. my parents mother specifically.. has been yelling for no reason.. i mean nothing to her.. i cant talk to her without her thinking im personally attacking her… soo its been this way for a long time its just gotten bad here recently… i feel so alone.. so uncared for… i feel as though im worthless.. no matter how hard i try i fail… i cry at least 4 times daily.. i cut myself on a daily basis and they hav been getting deeper and longer… it feels so good but looks so bad… if they kno im dead anyway so i stopped caring
I have been suicidal for three years now and have tried committing suicide three times. I was sent to the hospital because of the last time I tried. When my mom found out I tried killing myself she actually yelled at me. I get in trouble everyday and I barely talk to her anymore. All she cares about is herself, she doesn’t care for me. My best friends don’t even know what’s going on in my life anymore. The only people who I feel even care about my is my bro, sis, and boyfriend. That’s it though most of the time I don’t care. I know exactly what you are going through. I cut myself tons of times and now the cuts are getting deeper for me. It feels so refreshing to me.
your life matters.
The problem is not you.
She feels misunderstood for some reason and that is why she yells.
She feels that doing so will communicate her issues.
Is there antwhere you can go for solace?
Or get through to her?
Sometimes you just can’t get through to parents. I know exactly how AngelzUndoing feels. My mom will not listen for nothing. I don’t think my mom is misunderstood, I think she is selish and doesn’t care. Maybe thats the same for Angelz.
names Sarah…. 🙂 … thank you to both of u … getting through to my mother is never gonna happen… she hates me
AngelzUndoing, it sounds like your mother may be depressed too (and likely has other issues/ baggage causing this behaviour). It sounds like the environment you are in is really affecting how you feel right now. In the ideal world, what would be the best idea is a change of environment, but I have been in a very similar situation and I know that such a thing isn’t always practically possible straight away (which would be best)- but it may be possible with some time and planning? I had a friend who had suffered depression most of her life, who was intelligent and had a psychology degree but didn’t realize until a bit later that her problem with depression was a result of her mother (who she realized was narcissistic). She felt a lot better when she got away from her mother, and I can say the same for myself, although it was more of a big personality in my case, with my mother. If it is possible, try to get a room in a shared house/ flat or something. This can feel really scarey, the thought of moving in with strangers, but just having someone around can be a comfort sometimes. I’ve lived on my own before and this can be quite bad for depression.
AngelzUndoing, it sounds like your mother may be depressed too (and likely has other issues/ baggage causing this behaviour). It sounds like the environment you are in is really affecting how you feel right now. In the ideal world, what would be the best idea is a change of environment, but I have been in a very similar situation and I know that such a thing isn’t always practically possible straight away (which would be best)- but it may be possible with some time and planning? I had a friend who had suffered depression most of her life, who was intelligent and had a psychology degree but didn’t realize until a bit later that her problem with depression was a result of her mother (who she realized was narcissistic). She felt a lot better when she got away from her mother, and I can say the same for myself, although it was more of a big personality clash in my case, with my mother. If it is possible, try to get a room in a shared house/ flat or something. This can feel really scarey, the thought of moving in with strangers, but just having someone around can be a comfort sometimes. I’ve lived on my own before and this can be quite bad for depression.
My mom hates me too. She doesn’t care for me.