Not sure what to think

I left your daddy or at least the guy i think is your dad (or it could b my crazy abusive ex) because i wanted a better life for you. I dont want you growing up thinking having drugs in the house is ok that people coming in and out is alright. I left because you deserve to be happy n safe. Im here now just you my little tot and me against the world. Im sorry i didnt make better decisions sooner im sorry you have to grow up without a daddy like mommy did. Im sorry i fell in love with another guy who just plays with our heart strings i brought you down here to texas to wait for him i hope he really does shows up and treats us well. Little baby mommys sorry she couldnt give you a better life. I just want you to know i love you and i survived my suicide attempt years ago for a purpose i think it was to bring you into this world and be the best mommy i could, i’ll keep trying my best.