It’s just getting worse… The emptiness is showing.. I feel like I am going crazy, I’m losing my mind to this disease! How long till I fully lose it? It’s becoming more apparent I’ve gone fucking nutso. I’m scared , to break. I can only fight it for so long… How much longer can I hold off? The anxiety is at it’s peak, the depression has never been so high.. The bipolar is starting to come out more. How long till I snap? I’m so sick of this world.. So done with society, so tired of living. No one gets it, at least no one here.. He doesn’t understand, to him I’m just ridiculous. Every little thing is a big thing, I’m so tired of losing grip. I’m losing control. I need so much help… I’m lost in myself.
I wish I knew how to help myself, I want to help myself . I’m tired of this, I’m tired of always being tired, tired of no motivation, no will to live. I’m tired of walking around like I’m dead..
The thoughts of hurting myself are at it’s peak, more than ever I want to die. I don’t understand this sickness.. I was always so happy, I don’t know where it went wrong.. I don’t know how to control it anymore, I can’t control it. It’s taken over, now it’s just a matter of time.
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You dont have to do it. I was once where you where, i know how it feels to be down that low. I have that that person to talk to, that is always there dor me anytime. Even in the middle of the night. Just try to think, think about ever one in you life that would be affected by you not being there. I no that i dont know you and you dont know me but i would care.
It’s not that I dont know People care bout me. Its not them, I’m trapped in he’ll on earth, in my mind… I love the people in my life very much but this sickness is getting so bad. I can’t handle it almost, I’m trying so hard to keep control… I knowim to chicken to kill myself hut I always think about cutting… I used to. But I stopped and now it’s all I seem to think about when the darkness is at it’s worse.. I refrain but it’s shard. Sohardto be happy. So hardto do orbe anything… I hope itends . I just want it to end 🙁
hey I feel you. I too am at a point of no return and yet fear still remains my obstacle.
I know.. I’ll never be able to do it myself , but I will never stop hoping to not wake up, never stop wishingsome fucked up accident happens or I get hitby a car, anything to get out of this. But I am to chicken myself to do it… I know I’ll be hurting a lot of people… But it feels better than this torture and pain
Li know that it may seem that there is not hope, but trust me there is, i promise you. I was about to kill myself and my friend that knew i wanted to called me. Not even knowing that i was 1 minute from acting. Honestly she was my life saver about 28 times. Shr tik me about the buterfly project, idk if it will help you but it helped me. I also think about huring myself alot, i have horrible self control i never think about it so she told me to write it on my wrist. It helps. I know u might not believe me right now but try it. After a week or so i hope it works for you like it worked for me.
I will… I will try it. I have little hope.. But it’s better than none
By little I mean very… Very little, but I want to get better … So I will try my best
There is always hope, even if you dont know it. There will alwways be hope on the inside. You just have tp fine away to make it shine threw again
It’s so hard 🙁
Im glad you are willin to try. 🙂
I know. I really do but hang in there because things will get better. Honest. I thought tht the only thing i coul do to be happy was to die but thats a lie. Things go better for me. They will get better for you
No doubt, you’re having a hard time, a real hard time. Lean on the people on this site, we want to see you through, even if it takes a very very long time.