i went to my friens hoouse today… they dont have the best hous its all small  and everything is crouded with clothes and things on the floorr and drawing s on the wall my friend is doubling and i guess thy dont have that much money… you know what i find interesting about that familly? they dont have everything but when i see them, they always have this big smile … everyones happy… Why am i not happy then?  why cant i be fucking happy?!
today, i came back from my friends house, wearing a tank top and short shorts that my friend gave me… my mom came in my room and said: Dress a little bit more you look like a whore! And pick me up that dirty fucking room!! (it was okk like fuckk there was nothing on the floor!!) i replied ya im going to clean up your room since its not even mine i cant do what i want withe it ! its like if im renting it! then she replies : yaaa the worste part is your not even paying for it! Like wtff?!???!?? i want to leave and go live at my athers but shes just threathening my dad to pursuit him if i leave … whatt can i do fuckk i never wanted this.. then a lot of more shit has happened but i just cant explain it … theres too much to say and yet nothing cchanges.. i just think like every one on here that i should end my life like why live with this terrible life?? its been going on since 5 years now so why wait again and just be even sadder (even though i belive thats the furthest i can go) … so i guesse im just going to sleep outside again im just sick of everything … anyways thanks to whoever took the time to read this piece of crap i wrote with my shitty thoughts…
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Please don’t end your life, you’ll regret it. Trust me, I know what it’s like to go through this and feel like you’re alone but you aren’t just keep holding on and you’ll get better!
does your dad pay child support? do you have visitation with your dad? If so, go visit as often as allowable per the divorce agreement or court order. ask you dad how often he is legally allowed to have you visit.
non-custodial dawg
he is legal to have me whenever he wants my parents never married legally i am allowed to chose where i want to live thats the point
well – that’s why i suggest trying to spend as much time as is allowable at your dad’s … you have less than 2 years to go before you are free to leave your mom and go live with your dad or go to college and because you’e an adult there’s nothing your mom can do about it. my daughter’s mom used to tell me my daughter was “sick” or “didn’t feel lik visiting” so make sure you get the truth from both parents to understand what is going on.
dawg
yaa …. i want so but verytime my mother kicks me out i go to my dads then she blames the whole thing on me and then she says if i dont come back sshes going to pursuit my father for something about money he couldnt pay for studies for me so if i dont get back to hers my fathers life is ruined because of me and hes the only one who understands my pain actually but he cant do a damn… and legally it says at 14 years old you can decide with which parent you wanna live but for me i guess its different …
i my do I know how that goes – from the “dad” perspective … vindictive mother would drag him into court and make everyone’s life a worser hell for everyone 🙁
in some states you can apply to be emancipated at 16 yrs old – that means being considered an adult and independent – no sure how it works or how/if it’s a possibility … try to hang in there and visit/stay with your dad as often as possible and keep your head down and out of trouble with your mom … easier said than done – I know
good dawg
yeah thanks though for taking your time to reaply its not everyone that would..thnks
Talk to your dad about the situation, and see what you can work out. Some distance from your mom may make her realize that some changes need to be made. Divorce is so hard on everyone!!! Hang in there!!!