giving up

it started on the 2nd grade.heard gossips,but i didn’t mind at all cause i thought it woudn’t last.But it didn’t,,it turn out to be worst,cause even my friends betrade me..until all of them were gone..i experience the bullies..until i reached gr. 6th,,i feel lyk i want to kill myself,but i can’t,,so i jxt sat on my room thinking..sometimes i bump my head on the wall a 10 tyms and think y do ppol hate me..sometimes i feel alone,useless and a loser..It really hard,i tried to have new friends but they turn out to be the same,,if i lost a friend i would cry so hard and apologize even its not my fault..its really hard even you didn’t do something to them,,but still it turns out that i’m the bad guy..i hope i’ll find a way..:(((