Its just like when everything starts to work its self out something else goes wrong. Like everything  thing I do ends up being a mistake. I end up regretting everything.  I sit down at school and watch every ones smiling faces. I watch them having fun. Then try think back to the last time I felt like they did. I can’t remember. It feels as if iv’e always felt this way.  I went home and took out all my photo albums and looked at the photographs of me when I was younger there wasn’t a single picture of me with a sad expression. I looked at them crying I want to be like I was back then I want to smile and laugh at everything. I don’t want depression, or insomnia. Why did I ever have to get it….Â
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Life is just not fair. I don’t mean to say this as a substitute for something constructive nor do I mean for you to take it as a dead end comment, just a matter of fact. I really understand you when you talk of regretting your decisions; i’m at a pretty hard bottom now because of a recent decision I made that is not going over well and potentially will effect the rest of my life.
When you’ve put your heart and soul into a decision, no matter if it was the ‘right’decision or not, these are the moments you should not be too down on yourself. It’ll ruin your self esteem for future decisions and only increase your regrets. I’m working on taking my own advice now, and not doing too great! I’m sure you already know this- it’s just hard putting it to practice. Just let go of one regret- just one. Let it go and never think about it again. Hopefully this will empower you to move forward. Or else we will all just drown in all of our regrets- I have too many to count. best of luck