I feel like I’m being pulled in everyone takes me as a joke I don’t play sports like them I’m not in the know like them I get called a fag a disgrace to the world people say you should have been drowned at birth my mom calls me a transvestite because I wear eyeliner and my step dad is no help he is a verbally abusive fuck head and I feel like I’m just being dragged down with no hope and no light and I want to cry but I just can’t crying makes me feel weak and then the pills don’t work the shrink has no help for me I just can’t find my place I really think I should have never been born when I’m in class sometimes I just go into a daydream and wake up shaking in the nurses office my daydreams consist of me being dragged into a deep dark hole by shadows and everyone rejects me because I’m different I honestly don’t know I just go into these nightmares and don’t come out for hours I’ve missed a day of school cause of these nightmares
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Crying helps. I lost the ability to cry and now it sucks. Eyeliner? So your a guy? My dad beat me for Letting my hair grow out.
Embrace the darkness they are your friends. They will help yOu.
but the darkness is not friendly it tries to hurt me
Hi Lee, I am sorry to hear that you have encountered so many unfortunate circumstances and the pressure building on you.
If nobody appreciates your presence and treat you like a fellow companion in this world, you have to start loving yourself, appreciate yourself and align yourself with your inner soul.
Listen to this song
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VNkr86zZaP4
If life is too tough, accept it. Countless people have been destroyed by the evil in the world, and we are lucky yet not to be annihilated. Stop letting external factors to influence your internal soul. Let it untouched, let go of your assumption. Live in the moment.
If this isn’t enough to calm you down, read “A New Earth†which can be downloaded easily from Google.
Wish peace reside in you.
At least in the dark you don’t see it coming.
That’s not very uplifting.
Just remember, you are your own.
Darkness………….
Yup. That is how I describe it too
I am no word-smith, but being surrounded in darkness. A “presence” of gloom or dispare envelopes my world.
BUT, there are also days where the darkness is not there.
SORRY to hear you are in your dark spot. SORRY to hear that you currently are in a sucky place. But, IF you wanna talk. I will listen.
I make no promises of fixing anything. But, I will be happy to listen. And if you want my opinion – I will give it. And if you DONT want my opinion – that is okay too (then I will just be your sounding board).
Either way….. Hope your day gets better.
Gbguy1970 at yahoo