Exactly what is the point of living? If all I get called is “fat,ugly,stupid,a nobody,a whore,a slut,a *****”?? Like really I’ve cut myself exactly 10 times bleeding like hell still no death?? I would cut my throat open but my heart keeps telling me “just wait and soon things will be better just you wait” well guess what?? Nothing it wouldn’t bother me to do it right now at 2:51 am no problem at all once again my heart stops me but still nothing everybody left cause they thing I’m crazy so now I’m stuck with some stupid ass therapist!! And you know what hurts like hell?? Your family leaving you when your only 15! Lucky me(sarcastic) my one friend is letting me live with her she’s probably that one person that helps last time I cried so much my eyes got super red and looked like I was crying blood she helped me through that now schools coming up and everybody knows me as “that crazy ass slutty *****”! Oh geez what a great way to start school off one time it was me and no one else atleast I thought so right then and there I pulled that gun up to my head when my friend just yelled stop and I still hate her for that I could have left no one would care anyways? I mean there’s about 7 million people on this world what’s the different If i Leave?? So yeah That’s me I’m nothing but a cold hearted person with a poor mind and a stupid heart that tells me to stay clam I’ll just go to sleep now and have nightmares well thanks for reading! Maybe If maybe I stopped eating everybody would atleast stopp calling me fat well another day to starve and for the rest Of my life till I get the body I want!! Why not jut shoot me now it would be my honor! It’s not like anyone would care?? Like really!!?!?!??!!!
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In a few years , you’ll be “all grown up”. You won’t have to deal with these people anymore. And if you do most o them will or should feel like assholes. They’ll mature. You’ll mature. Who knows where your life will take you if you keep fighting to live another day.
As 1uselessgal has said, people grow up. I know it’s hard to be called all of those and more (I’m still going through it, but it’s reducing slowly), but it will stop. I can’t guaranty when, but it will. Until it does, always feel free to email me and I will try to help in any way I can.
Hey Emily (btw – very pretty name),
Sorry to hear the haters of this world have gotten to you.
I hope you know there are more of us than there are of them. Hang in there. People are commenting on your post cuz we DO care. We DO want you to stay with us. We DO want you to become a friend. Even if the haters pile on you – please know that I care.
Sincerely,
James – gbguy1970 at yahoo dot com
I spent elementary school as that fat, annoying, nerdy loner girl; early junior high as the same girl, and late junior high as the fat, annoying, weird, dark loner girl. Im in high school too, and what I do cope is walk around with my headphones in, my ipod in my back pocket, and my volume up. Can’t hear a thing except Pierce the Veil screaming :3 (my personal music choice is probably different from yours)
James is right, there are people who care! Many people on this site understand what you’re going through, and so we’re here to comfort, not attack. The world is full of too many fucking assholes. I’m glad you have a best friend who takes care of you, everybody deserves one. I know I wouldn’t be typing this now if it weren’t for mine…
James is also right about Emily being a pretty name (sorry if thats completely irrelavent)
Im sure youre not fat or slutty or ugly or any of the things people call you! Dont starve yourself, I’ve seen too many people go down that road, and it’s better just to flip off whoever makes you think you need to and keep eating (especially because people call people fat despite if they are or not, theyre just looking for any word to put another dent in your self esteem)
“I pulled that gun up to my head when my friend just yelled stop and I still hate her for that I could have left no one would care anyways? I mean there’s about 7 million people on this world what’s the different If i Leave??”
Well, think about this – your friend chose you OVER those 7 million others, over the other assholes in your school, to be her friend. She wouldn’t have saved those 7 million others.
But she saved you.
You’re worth more than those other people. So if you died, that’s the difference – one less quality person… and one more sad friend
im here if you need to talk! Sorry this post went on for so much longer than i expected it to..
(petalview@yahoo.com)
very well said NP. Very well said.
I wonder how many people on this planet are responsible for making another person’s life a misery. I wonder how it makes them feel. What goes around comes around.