My 21-month old son is special needs and I can’t pay for therapy. We live in a shitty third-world country, which in itself is a good reason to off oneself, so basic services aren’t free. My husband is a good man but he has no ambition. I can’t work because we can’t afford a sitter and no one would look after my son. We’re always hungry because there’s never enough to eat. I’ve tried everything to make things better but I always end up hitting a wall.