I can’t … I mean. Every time I start to get close to someone on here, I lose them. I almost feel like I’m what ended them cuz it’s right after I start talking to them. Everlasting, Khajiit (assumed until further notice, the’re talking about her on facebook and she’s been off fb since the 5th) and Lifeblows, oh and yourbabeforlifee… Probly Cassidy and Kat are dead too (don’t even remember their usernames) They haven’t emailed in months. I can’t get close to people who don’t understand cuz they don’t get it and always hurt me, and now I can’t get close to those who do because they all die right after I start to trust them… Please don’t try to help me, I’ll just drive you over the edge -.- I’m sorry to those I’ve let down.
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Firstly. When someone isn’t on facebook it doesn’t mean they died.
Also I am pretty sure you haven’t put them over the edge either.
This is a suicideforum. People who are here are already on the edge and probably have been for a long time.
Them wanting to kill themselves had nothing to do with you. I’m pretty sure about that.
What matters to me is that I can’t talk to anyone anymore. I’m keeping things in till I explode… Shouldn’t take long.
You should just rant more in your posts maybe. Or check out that fb account. I can’t help you, I’m sorry
I don’t want your help anyways. I do have the fb sp.
In that case I’m not sorry either
Why would you be sorry anyways? I don’t need your sympathy… I don’t want it
I wasn’t sorry, I said sorry because I tried to be nice.
If you don’t want sympathy stop trying to get sympathy votes then.. jeess
I saw this post, I thought ah that poor girl needs someone to tell her she isn’t the cause of evetryones death. My bad, apparantly.
I’m sorry! I didn’t mean it -.- I don’t know what happened I just got really angry. James was the last person I ever wanted to lose… I just… I’m so sorry!! I never treat people like that! Please forgive me! :'( I get it if you don’t tho. I was mean. I just… I’m sorry
Sigh, no don’t worry about it. I feel like a dick now.
I am in a shitty mood too, I should have known better than to act like a *****.
Don’t worry about it ok? And I’m sorry too.
I’m sorry and thanks… Friends? >.< He's alive -.- I got an email from him. Damn I cried so hard… Guess I needed it but still…
Sure, friends. Good! Don’t worry about it, everybody needs to cry sometimes
<3 thanks for not hating me -.- 🙂
It isn’t fair to blame yourself or assume that you somehow, in any way had some “cause” to their choices.
Everyone here is like hostages on a plane … the “hostage taker” is whatever brought us to this place … the other people here are just sharing the experience … the “rescuers are whatever “clicks” within us to secure or release … but like any rescue team knows … there WILL be losses – so they go in with the assumption that ALL hostages are already dead … of course the goal is to save as many as possible … but there IS going to be a battle on the plane and there WILL be casualties
So if the ‘rescuers” start from the position hat ALL hostages are already dead … they can go directly after the hostage takers to beat them … then and only then – after the hostage takers are all killed or arrested do they concern themselves with how many hostages have actually survived … every single survivor is a WIN for the rescue team … every loss is a WIN for the hostage takers …. the outcome was never in the hands of the hostages themselves
(although in our case we can choose to leave the plane one way or the other)
You are NOT on the rescue team … we’re all just trying to get off the plane – one way or the other – but you can’t take responsibility because someone else bought a ticket to be on the same plane
please remain seated til the plane has stopped at the gate
pilot dawg
heh.. Thanks Dawg <3 that actually kinda helped
I was talking to you the other day, then I read a post on SP about signs. I think your Pal wrote it. So, theres a horse running next year called Dawn Approach. It might be worth a small investment. Unless he gets transferred to Godolphin. Man, they can turn a grade 1 horse into a selling handicapper.
hmm Dawn sounds like you are being REALLY hard on yourself. Sending you love some love.
glad it did – I was kinda worried that it might be hard to “see” the connection … but it really is true for the Israeli special Forces … they are trained to go on the assumption that in a hostage rescue attempt, they consider all hostages as “already killed by the hostage takers”
I use to think ‘wow – what a horrible and callous way to think’ … but then I came to realize the brilliance in the mindset … if a rescuer hesitates for a split second during a rescue attempt, it could not only get him killed but also several MORE people he is trying to save … so if his shot hit’s the hostage AND the bad guy … at least the bad guy can not harm any MORE people.
there’s a saying among animal rescuers – “Saving just one dog/cat won’t change the world, but surely it will change the world for that one dog/cat.”
if you can help someone to smile or get their mind off what hurts them – even for a moment – you’ve done something great – no matter the ultimate outcome.
nice dawg
wow :’) Thanks for that <3
This site offers a support system that differs from what the people around you try to tell you, we all feel and try to understand the pain that you feel and help eachother by telling our own stories, sharing our own experiences. The tragic thing about helping people that want to die is that we beat ourselves up when we don’t succeed, we can’t do that to ourselves though because that pain will never end. You are scared to lose anyone else because the people you have grown close to still feel that strong feeling of pain, not everyone can be saved, I’m sure we all have experienced that feeling when the person we try to help no longer responds, we asume they have left this life when really it may not be the case. Stay strong.