Untold Story..

I’,m 14 years old, & I’ve never really tried to kill myself but i had a thoughts..I’ve been stabbing my pillows & trying to cut my thighs & stuff because, ever since i was young my grandmother seemed like she never could accept the fact of my birth & my father the first time i met him i was 4 years old he abused me ever since i was little until i kept growing older & it kinda cooled down, he always use to sit on me hold my breath , he use to lock me in closets, abuse me with belts,sticks, fists, he did so much to me i told my mom but i think she didn’t believe me no one it bothered me & i started to feel angry inside as a child,  my father lied & disappointed me all my life never use to show up & my grandfather was a father to me it really bothered me because i just wanted a normal life, right now it’s like their blaming me & making me feel like some kind of mistake even my relationship is falling apart because of him he missed every graduation he never showed up to anything i watched him abused every woman he had a lot got stitches, false teeth everything & i couldn’t do nothing about it cause he would of found me & i don’t know what else worse he could of done to me  i could hardly talk to anyone cause i don’t think they would understand, i feel alone in this world , broken, disappointed , crushed & incomplete.

– Why Hold On..