I don’t want to live anymore, I can’t cope with life. I can’t keep struggling anymore, it’s just a constant uphill battle which I never seem to win. I have never succeeded with anything in life because I am too scared of everything. I have always had people around me telling me that I am no good enough and to just give up. So I am going to give up for good now.
Every time I try to move my life forward I am pushed two steps back by someone or something. I have never held down a job for longer than a year and my life has just become meaningless. Why should I put myself through this never-ending torture? Every day I struggle to survive. Happiness is so brief before it’s taken away from me again. I can’t cope knowing the person I love is miles away from me. It’s a daily torture.
I have tried for 25 years to win this battle. But I am not strong minded enough. What comes so easily to others is too hard for me to bear. I don’t have the coping mechanisms in my brain to get me through tough situations. I have no confidence or self belief to get me anywhere in my life and it’s because of the people around me.
I was going to go on, but I can’t think of what else to say…
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I don’t know what to tell you to say either. But i can tell you that no one’s life is meaningless. If we were mant to mean nothing to the world we wouldn’t be here.
I know exactly what u mean. I’m 25 and I’m on my last leg and i have decide to end it this year if i am unable to turn this shipwreck of a life around in the stockmarket (of all places and in my relationship or lack there of).