I’m Crying Out…Almost Screaming out in pain….but its like no one can hear me, even though they are in the next room…its just that they don’t want to hear it. they are sick of looking after me, they are sick of caring about me, they are just sick of me in general…. my says shes just worried ill make her depressed…like its contagious….my brother doesn’t  even talk to me, to him i don’t exist,my step Dad just doesn’t care. mum told me she can’t handle me, she doesn’t know what to do with me, like i’m an object or a dog. i feel like a burden i feel like im just a problem they have to deal with. i.i. i  feel like they’d be better off without me. i don’t even  just feel that way. i know its true… so here i am curled up in bed. in the dark. tears drowning my keyboard….i just want to die. i just want to go. i can’t take it anymore!
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Hey Elly.
There’s nothing else I could say to you except that I’ve read your posts, and that I know how you’re feeling.
That sounds a lot like my situation parents hate u treat u like a object not a person it’s here Loss to us it’s a escape n to me freedom one question how high of a chance of death if I slit my rust realy deep
Rist not rust
Hi Elly,
I have no idea how I just got on this post but anyway. I am crying reading it. I don’t understand how others commenting it can just sit there and wait for you to kill yourself. It seems to me like: Yeah, well, I know how you feel, go do it. I wish I could be your friend in real life but I can at least tell you what I want over here. I’m a 16 year old czech girl. Now a long story short – I never knew my real dad and I grew up with a stepfather who hated me. Many times I wanted to cut in my wrist and die (when I was 10 so I didn’t know any other way). Since he moved out time to time I’m always told: You kicked him out now you wanna kick us? I live with mom and sister and also don’t feel very “wanted” in here.
But what I wanna say is that a few months ago I accepted Jesus as my Lord. I am from an atheist family so it seemed like a fairytale to me first but now I see the help i got from God. I just wanna encourage you to at least try to pray (talk to God) and read the Bible (maybe an online one) and just ask God for help. Don’t give up!! Stay strong.
God made everyone on purpose. Even if we don’t have great families, schools, etc. God has a plan with everyone.
Contact me if you want – kackakr@seznam.cz
Remember there’s someone who care!!
Much love, Kat. xxO