I cannot believe that it has come to this, again.
I need to go in again, otherwise I will be dead in 24h. I have a time with my psych consult tomorrow afternoon. I just need to keep myself alive long enough to get there. After many, many months it has come down to this again. It will be my 8th time in, but this time I hope they hold me long enough to get the help I need. I cannot live like this, can definitely die, but need out some way or another.
Fuck, this is so so so hard.
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Why you in so much pain. I mean what are your issues.?
Asking someone who is depressed what the direct issues are is very difficult. I have found the longer the time has gone, the harder it is to explain. Long and short of it is, having being left alone and in desperate need of help, I have sunk. Abusive parents, to unsuccessful relationships and down to a loneliness, have not spoken with a single person in 3 weeks and isolation. It has just mounted and mounted.
Now I feel nothing positive, not a glimmer of hope or happiness for a single second for over 16 months. At some point enough is enough
I cannot seem to help myself, I abuse drugs and alcohol and despite being well of an academically successful, nothing helps.
I’m sorry. If it help’s. your not the only one. I plan to end my life. I’m hope in with in 6 mouth’s. Buy try get some help.
But not buy.
I have had timelines and deadlines before. But my one tomorrow is 100%. I will either be in hospital or dead. I cannot take it anymore.
I know many people feel the same way here and I wish this didn’t even exist. We all need help. Some things I know I do wrong, but I cannot help it. I need more help than I am getting and I live in a 1st world country with high suicide rates. More help is there if I accept it, but I need more internal help. That is why the hospital is my last chance, for the 8th time
i hope you work through it & get help.
It’s been more than 24 hours. Did you see psych? What happened?
Hey… did you get to the hospital?
My guess is that you made it to the hospital and are still there now.
When you return, give us an update, OK?
Oh my god! It’s Everlasting! Dude, I’ve read a few of your posts from a few months ago. I’ve always wanted to talk to you and help you (with your suicide) but I thought you weren’t around anymore. Please email me so we can talk for a bit: stevenson74@live.com