the only reason i didnt close the 4 in between me and the ledge of our 3 story roof
was because i didnt want you to have to get caught up when the police come for the body.
screaming and crying and after our blow out
because i cant even function or see myself without you without breaking down
and your aparently so affected by our arguing
that your first thought is to sit and watch porn .
thanks fo not noticing ort checking on me after our fight.
and then
you still expect me to want to have sex with you.
i should  have just jumped.
one way or another i will die if i stay with you
by my hands or my head or your drugs.
how can i love and need the approval or n egotistical self centered lying narcassict?