I know ppl die everyday, I know how my life is, and i do not have to put up with this, Ive waited long enough as it is.. My body has a demon in it, this world is ending, really, anyway, i tryed to kill myself when i was 14 now 26, in the past two weeks ive tryed to hang myself with an extention cord and the door, oviously i failed, i almost blacked out the 2nd time, but i was struggling and its not that i dont want to die, cuz i really do and am soon, i just dont have the right method, so i say fuck it all, i do not have to,live like this anymore, my life shall come to an end soon, i hope ya”ll find peace..
share your suicide story
Report Post
Please log in to report posts
9 comments
Hope you find peace. Its what were all looking for.
We’ll miss you Atlanta 🙁 I hope you find peace with whatever you choose. Can i ask y January?
I still have a few things to do, but i figure four months should give me enough time, i want to depart now, but i need to plan it, so when it happends, i wont be waking up.
Don’t do it.
I can promise you, there’s something here for you.
I don’t know what.
And, I’m a stranger.
I care enough to show you that it isn’t worth it.
i hope to end it soon to
Travel well friend.
Killing yourself is MUCH harder than it sounds. I’ve been putting my plan together for the last 12 months, and changed my method at least twice. I had originally planned to off myself around New Year’s Day just gone, but it would appear that had I done what I was going to do, it wouldn’t have done anything other than give me a stint in a psych ward … later research told me that whilst the method was sound, my execution wouldn’t achieve the desired result.
Of the 12 months of planning, much of that time was spent doing stuff like tidying up my affairs and finding a location. I now have 4 methods I can choose from, though I will not share them here. I know where I will go; it is a beautiful and peaceful spot where I am unlikely to be disturbed until I’ve long departed. I have also written my suicide notes and updated my will. Unless something dramatic happens to my fortunes in the next few weeks, I aim to go through it with it by the end of September.
My advice to you is to research, research and then do more research. Methods, after-effects on others, how your body will look when you are discovered … all of these are factors to consider. Make a checklist of everything you need to do to depart without leaving any loose ends. I’ve ticked all the boxes on my checklist, and am now ready to travel whenever I get a chance and/or I feel like it.
Whilst it would be preferable if you didn’t go through with it, I understand what it’s like to be in so much pain you can’t see any other option than to catch the bus. 4 months is a long time, maybe something will happen that will convince you to stay here for a bit longer.
All the best.
I love your dialog sans!! Thanks for your advice
No problem. I’m not going to be all preachy; I just figure that by spelling out just how hard it is to do this properly, it might enough to put some folks off … especially those folks that have some doubts.
No matter what, at least you’ve given yourself time to set out what you are trying to achieve. And, no matter what, I do wish you all the very best in your travels.