I dont feel anything. I’m just done. I’m just empty. Filled wit shit un my mind. I’m like drowing myself in tears. Remembering a lot of things I could have ended long ago. People might not even read this but still I sit here with no fucking purpose in life. Why am I even fucking alive. Someone else could have my life and actually appreciate it. He/she would actually have people to appreciate his/her life. But instead I have it. I remember when I told my mom that maybe she would be happier if I was dead, what did she say? “if that’s your choice then go ahead.” I mean…… to say those words to your own daughter? Just cause of your shit pride? It hurts, really hurts. I should have done it back then. I would have made a favor to many. And today, maybe today’s the day. To just end all this crap. I’m so empty, all my friends have left me for other people, I can’t seem to find a right thing to ever do. It’s been a month since I stared crying myself to sleep just thinking about my life. And its full of shit. 15 years of life that I’ve had and it’s been such a hell. I’m just done…even cutting doesn’t help anymore. All this scars are just there, telling me cut deeper.
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please don’t self harm or suicide. I know everything seems like its just shit it won’t get better but it will
dont..i know how you feel i was really really sick and needed to go to the ER and i told my father hurrry up do you want me to die, and he just said “i dont care if you live or die”…he said it out of anger but dont…grow up and ignore your childhood, thing of a child in your future and just LOVE her/him LOVE THAT CHILD and never stop remembering your childhood and try to make theres better cuz, you have 70 year left.these are just the first 20….comon, just live
Thank you so much…and I’m really sorry he said that, if you’re here’s cause you must be a great person & didn’t deserve those words. And I’m sure I’ll take care of that child one day, right now I’m just scared&confused about life, maybe that’s why I keep being so negative, but I’ll keep trying
and dont even cut..ive been crying myself to sleep since i was eight and i still find a reason to live…can you do me a favor, go outside, breathe, pat yourslef on the back and repeat
I’m outside, I’m breathing staying calm not to cut again.
Thank you for saying that…i’ll try my best to cheer up at least a bit.
and dont even cut..ive been crying myself to sleep since i was eight and i still find a reason to go on…can you do me a favor, go outside, breathe, pat yourslef on the back and repeat
thank you….you made me and everyone else happier because your alive
Maybe you..<3 but thanks
Me too
Don’t kid yourself everyone here happy your still here 😛
your welcome and see already 4 people including you are extatic that you are alive….congrats, your famous/…cheer up 😀
I wouldn’t go as far as to say my response was ecstatic.
Hello there,
I know what it feels like to want to die. I also know rejection and pain from others.
Listen, if you need to ever talk, I’m here. It’s brl.cents@gmail.com
I’m not going to tell you what you should or shouldn’t do, but stay strong and try to see the bright side in life.
Yes, I struggle with depression, and yes, I’ve been toying with suicide in these last few weeks. But I love people and know not what’s on the other side.
Stay strong hun,
Paul
mine was 😛
I was actually referring to the post. That’s how I feel but worse. A lot worse.
Chicky, you’re 15. You’ve got a long life ahead of you. It’s normal to not know a purpose when you’re a teen. Like me, I thought I was just a bragging piece for my parents or a punching bag or whatever depending on their mood. I was, but… Anyways… Things will change. You just have to keep fighting. Your mom isn’t happy you’re there? Screw her! Show her how awesome your life is. Make her blazing jealous of you. I mean, don’t destroy her out of revenge or anything… just make her jealous. honestly, I don’t know if love life is something you should truly worry about yet. It’s more of a testing stage in life for you. So forget about it. It’ll pass by without a second thought. You have people who love you and care for you. Keep fighting.