I used to have it all.. I was popular, captain from my soccer team and I loved my life. Then I had some heart problems so I stayed home for an entire school year. Then I changed school and got bullied for an entire year, that’s when I got really depressed. I changed school again but had to redo 10th grade again, so now I’m 2 years older then the people in my class. I’m afraid I’m gonna get bullied again this school year.My parents won’t let me quit high school even though I’m 18. I hardly have any friends left. I got chronical fatigue syndrom and blood pressure issues. I cut everyday and I feel disgusting for doing that. I tried to hang myself a week ago but I was able to cut the rope but I came pretty close. I hate pretending to be happy in front of everyone when I’m not. I cry myself to sleep everynight. I hate myself, this world and all the people here. I never even had a girlfriend before and I’m 18. I can’t take it anymore 🙁
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First sorry, thats a shitty hand you were delt.
I was in a very similur position a few years back, i had it all, a beautiful gf i loved and going to college and i was happy.
Then She died and i lost my shit, ended up on the streets and tried to kill myself.
I went to drug rehab and a person there saved my life. you are only 18 your life is not definied and you are who you are, so you may aswell get to like yourself. You have to stand up to bullies, even if you lose, you have to fight back, bullies trive on fear. If you be yourself and do the things you love like soccer,you will attract people like you and make freinds again.
I know you are angry with the world.
“play the victim and you will be the victim”
I hope you feel better soon. Suicide is not the answer, if you die now you will never experience love, trust me kid, you want to experience love.
Hang tough
Peace
Unique
I’m sorry to hear that about your girlfriend, I hope you’re okay. And I wish I had the strength to make it through this. But I’m so weak and pathethic. I just feel like crying all day in my bed and never get out anymore. ):
Cant fix it magicaly over the course of a day, Do you know things that make you happy? like a sport or hobbie, just emerse yourself in it. dont sit alone in selpity, it will only get alot worse. even if your just walking around outside doing nothing, its much better than sitting in your bedroom crying. Sorry about the tough love, but im leaving tomorrow and i want to try and help you now.
I know what you’re going through. I had it all & then I quit school & started homeschool & lost contact w/all my friends. I even used to get bullied bc I was heavyset. I’m 20 years old now & I look back on those days & it’s defiantly an experience. What i’ve learned is that after school, alot changes! Things defiantly got better for me. You can’t let these a’hole’s ruin your life, or anybody for that matter. You need to take control & I promise, going through this sh*t experience will only make you stronger as a person. Having people do you dirty really opens your eyes & allows you to see people for what they really are & dude, you’re not the only one w/girl issues. You’re still young 🙂 you got time. Just do me a favor & try not to be too sure of any relationship. I learned that the hard way. Love’s beautifull, but it can really destroy you! I hope everything works out for you man, I really do.