Jumping out a window…

I’m having a hard time being at work right now. I feel depressed and just sad, I’m not sure why… I just want to disappear.

I’ve attempted suicide twice in my life… I’ve been thinking about trying again allot recently. Just the other week I was fantasizing about jumping out of a window in this 20 story building I was in…

How does everyone cope w/ day to day life? I try the best I can to put a smile on my face and go about normal life – but that is getting really hard to do.