My name is Jeremy, im a 25 year old man and I am going to end my life today. For 25 years, all I have given to this world, to my family and friends, is heartache, pain, misery and lies. Ive been labeled something im not but thats beside the point. I heard my mother today tell me that she was done with me, she wants nothing more to do with me. My father also said this. I have the most beautiful girlfriend named Chelle, we are apart right now because she lives in Colorado and I live here in hell.We lost our baby not too long ago, and it hurt so much. I would rather have laid down my life in order for her to be born. It feels so hard to breathe on a daily basis. Im so depressed I cant even get out of bed. Im not a person that can function normally, I am flawed, I am weak, I am nothing. I know that I will not be going to heaven for this selfish action, I deserve to be in hell. To my mother Lisa, I am so sorry for everything, I love you, I miss you, you are the best mother. To my father Timothy, I am sorry for everything. I have given our family name a bad name, I have broken things that cannot be fixed. To my sister April, I love you. To my sister Jessica, I love you. To my sister Gracie, I love you. To my brother Michael, I love you. To my brother Hunter, I love you. To my brother Brad, I love you. To my brother Stephen, I love you. To my mamaw Audrey, I love you. To my Aunt Lisa, I love you. To my Uncle Ronald, I love you. To my Aunt Karen, I love you. To my Uncle David, I love you. To my Uncle Garry, I love you. To my cousin Jarrod, I love you. To Seth E., I love you. To Meagan L., you never knew it but I loved you. To the ghosts that still haunt me from the past, heres to you. The fight is the last thing I will suffer. I bid you farewell
(This is Jeremys brother Hunter, sadly he did kill himself, I found him this afternoon with his laptop on and this webpage up, suicide is a painful solution, now my family and i have to deal with the aftermath, thanks to everyone for their care and concern, RIP Jeremy M. Branson 4/6/1987-08/04/2012)
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do not let your wife/girlfriend lose you too, she just lost a baby.
I have nothing left
can we talk, you are obviously at the last place one should be mentally, but you’re 25, you live your life and start that family with your wife/girlfriend , she needs you more than ever and you need her too!!
She doesnt need me, she deserves better than me, she deserves a man that isnt mentally broken like I am, im a disease, im cancer
I can see all those people whom you love. They love you too. Words sometimes do not always reflect the real deep down feelings. When they hurt (your parents) they/people want you to feel their hurt..so they say things they do not mean. Please take time to take a breath and really really think about this. We all feel your pain. A lot of us can relate. Just like the last comment, don’t Let your girlfriend suffer through another loss. Talk to her…talk to someone. Please. It’s not the end. I can’t change your mind, you have to. I know it’s your decision and only you have been through what you’ve been through. But you reached out here…just think how much you’ll be missed by all the people you love. Vent out your anger and frustration here if it helps any. We’re here to listen.
I am a martyr, an emotional terrorist, I know what needs to happen, I cant bring anyone anything they dont already have
Everyone loves you. Just hold on. Parents say things out of anger we are just grown up kids too. Trust me they don’t mean it. They just want you to understand the mistakes you are making. They are hurting because you are hurting and don’t know how to help you “fix” your pain. But dying is not the answer. That is the ultimate hurt you can give them. They will feel like it is their fault and they failed you. Love and prayers to you.
we get to that place through hurt, you get out through love, be the love that you need in your life – She needs you.
I have struggled with these feelings for a long time, and I am tired, I just want to go to sleep and not wake up
i love you too breakingdown 🙂
Nobody could love me
why?
im a guy and i love you too, use it
You can bring them you. If you’re gone…they won’t have that. I’ve been through death (not necessarily suicide-well maybe) but it hurts us here that’s left behind. They won’t get another Jeremy. Not ever. You’re young…things will change. You can change. Just think about it first.
you need each other man, ring your girl and tell her how much you love her, and listen hard and take it in when she tells you I LOVE YOU TOO!
Theres nothing left but wasted years
you need to be with her, can i ask what pushed you over?
My parents telling me im not their son anymore pushed me over, I dont deserve to keep living in this life when theres innocent people dying everyday
start making them count start that family
Jeremy, look at the response you’re getting. People who don’t even know you think you are worth so much.
We don’t care if you’ve made some mistakes and done some things that you regret – we’ve all done that. It’s part of being human. Give yourself a break.
By staying alive, you can turn things around. You can change.
Ive had many chances to turn it around, I messed up, the fire side of my shoulder is making plans
Do you always put others first?
Are you always worried about what people think?
Are you caring?
Are you kind and sensitive?
If you answered yes to any of these questions, that’s where you’re going wrong. You need to remove the neurotic need to help people. It’s demoralising.
Everyone is selfish, callous, angry, dishonest, impolite, revengeful, mean.
The only way to address this issue is to accept that all of the things that make us bad people are part of the pleasures of being alive and the flaws in everyone else. Once you achieve this mental strength, each day will be calming and happy.
your girl is innocent, take this opportunity man , she really really needs you
Theres a game life plays, makes you think your everything they ever said you were, I’d like to take some time, clear away everything I can, was it life I betrayed? For the shape that im in, its not hard to fail, its not easy to win, did I drink too much? Could I disappear, and theres nothing thats left but wasted years
common courtesy man.
start spending them, is your girl the one thing that keeps you here right now
Benadryl
she needs you too
Ive been in many dark places before, i cant imagine how yu feel. This may be too late but even at the end of our road, when the abyss surrounds you, you can still find hope. There are no such things as wasted years. You are in a very dark place but try and give yourself a little more time, postpone it.
All the best to you young man, i really do hope you can survive this
I honest;y don’t know what love feels like, but we’re on the same journey today. I wish you luck on your last day and I hope you do the same as this is my last day as well
Don’t do It!Dedicate your life to your baby!I’m sure your baby and God are lookinq down and you hopinq that you overcome these thouqhts!
I won’t try and convince you not to end it, if I were to try I would be a hypocrite. No one can help you if you don’t help yourself. You’re arguing with everyone desperately trying to deter you from a horribly permanent decision. If you truly want to die then it is your choice, but please consider the consequences. Not just for anyone else, but for YOU too. What would killing yourself mean to you? If you truly want to die then by all means…
Sorry to say, this is Jeremys brother Hunter and he did kill himself, I found him this afternoon with his laptop still on and this website up 🙁 thank you for your care and support
what! oh man his girlfriend is gonna be ruined – 2 in 2 days on here
Peace to you all
OM shanti